Ok no lectures necessary... I’m well aware I haven’t written in awhile. As per usual when I am feeling content I don’t have the urge to write. I’ve been neglecting everything really lol. Facebook…blogs…my book… you name it i'm not doing it! I will answer the questions Steph asked in response to my last blog and tell you my exciting news and give you a bit of an update. God as I read this to myself I think hmm my blog sounds so monotonous lol.

Ohh exciting news number one- I think my poppas going to be buying me a car. Which is a huge relief. I saw the fambam on Saturday night and he asked me a few questions bout how much money I have saved so far etc and then asked if I wanted my bday present 6months early.. Hells yeah I do! So that makes me very happy…

Exciting news number two- I just signed up for a 7 week kickboxing class and have three other people doing it with me! How awesome is that! It’s a great way to get fit and it’s something i've wanted to do for the longest time... my mate from work, her friend and Carlos all wanna do it with me so that’s added inspiration!

Exciting news number three- Nicola has officially moved out of the house so it’s just me and the boys while we look for a new place. I’m totally stoked. It’s like a new sense of peace has come over the house. We are drama free and we can all say whatever whenever without running the risk of hurting or offending each other which is awesome. I defintly feel my maternal side with those two and do a lot more cooking and cleaning but because they show appreciation I really don’t care that they may not quite be doing there share. They look after me in a way that none of my female mates ever have...

Nothing else new to report really... My life is just cruising along! Also wanted to say a big shout out to Bondon! I haven’t spoken to you in ages lol and I miss your little comments!

Now to answer the questions...

My favorite thing to indulge in is probably just relaxing on my bed with music playing and reading a good book while eating chips and dip... It’s my absolute favorite way to have me time and I often have to set an alarm for myself so I don’t get to into it and forget all the other things I have to do... My job is so crazy lately that I dream of work and I live with two crazy boys so it makes it hard to relax for sure. It might sound like a boring indulgence but it’s me to a tee!

The reason I started my blog was because I needed an outlet. I often felt like my friends judge me on things I say or whatever up until recently. I needed to express the thoughts or feelings I still have/had for my ex as well and it defiantly helped to see other people’s blogs and the things that were said to them. My inspiration for this blog was a guy and was that way for a while but now I guess it’s just my outlet and I love it!

Im writing a novel haha

So guess what everybody!

As you all know I am obsessed with all things Twilight and One Tree Hill. I relate a lot to Peyton Sawyer on OTH especially at this point in my life and really love watching the drama. As for twilight I hold out that I will find my Emmett. Ive been reading a lot of fanfiction about both things and have fallen in love with all the different things that people are writing about. So I started writing my own one! lol it feels so weird to be writing a novel and I havnt told anyone else except for you guys now! Im on my fifth chapter and im loving it!

Other than my new book obsession life is in general good. Nic is moving out in the next two weeks so were looking for a new flat mate! You can come to NZ and live with me Steph! The boys and I are getting along well. Its nice living where I live now that the drama of females are removed from the house. I really cant wait till Nic is gone…

Man it’s so hard to blog when your happy so im gonna join the club and do an “ask me anything” post! Leave me a comment with a question and I will answer you in open honesty!

Just to say...

Good morning my lovelies or should I say afternoon! I guess it probably is night time or afternoon a day behind us where you guys are! I’ve been so slack with my blogging of late but I will catch up ASAP! I am currently sick again with the stupid flu and spent yesterday in bed dying haha. Oh well today I’m all drugged up on flu medicine so I’m going to spend the day catching up on all your blogs and stuff! Look out for my comments coming your way!

The weekend that was..

Where the hell do I start with my momentous weekend?

Umm man it was crazy. In fact I don’t even know if I’m ready to put into words my feelings or what happened. It was… not the best experience and I nearly came home early. When I told mum what the deal was her quote of the day was “I let them near my baby for one day and they nearly lose her. 21 years I had her with no problems!!!” to say she was unhappy is an understatement. My aunty got so drunk on Friday night that I ended up being ditched in some hick part of town in the middle of nowhere by myself while she took off. I was freaking out to say the least. Young, female and in the wrong part of town whilst drunk is never a good idea! God it was horrible. My dad has no interest in the actual details of my life. I don’t even know if we will stay in contact the rest of my life. He clearly hasn’t made enough effort thus far and meeting him was sort of a let down. Lesson learned I guess. It was uncomfortable for sure… I don’t know what the next meeting will be like or when or how it will happen but it’s going to take me a little while to get to the right mental place. One compliment I got was that I’m the only real one of my cousins to be truly independent. That made my day. I’m going back to work now cause I’ve got so much to catch up on but I wanted to say hey and I’m still here.

I will blog some more once I’ve processed a little bit of this in my head. Thanks to those of you who left me comments on one of my most recent posts! Its so awesome to have your support and Steph.. I miss you too hun lol I haven’t had a chance to get on FB and reply!

At the airport!

So im at the beginning of my 3 hour long wait for my aunty at the airport! tryna read everyones blogs but i cant cause the stuupid web here is blocking me! ugh gonna go so crazy being stuck here my friends! lol so glad im here tho and yeah jillian im sure it will go well. i talked to the nicest lady on the plane who really made me feel at ease. i think the thing i love the most is that im on holiday for the next three days! yays! anyway im gonna get some breakfast! ive een up since 4am with no food and its now after 8! mmm food here i come!

Award season!

My girl Steph who feature in my last post has nominated me for the "Interesting Blog Award!"
All I can say is yays my second ever award! You should check her out at...

http://smo17.blogspot.com/

I would in turn like to nominate the following fabulous people...

http://mybuggabutt.blogspot.com/
http://bondonisbored.blogspot.com/

its so hard to nominate people cause i share a lot of the same blogs as Steph but these two are sisters and I love reading their insights into the world XO


Don't Forget The rules:1. Accept the award, post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award and his/her blog link.2. Pass the award to other blogs that you've newly discovered.Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.

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I have two posts I will be doing today. One is to show you some artwork that is really speaking to me at the moment. I have it hanging on my wall in my bedroom! I have a slight obsession with Peyton Sawyer and it’s the stuff she’s done on One Tree Hill. I don’t care if its lame or whatever I like it and it speaks to me. So you will find that below! I know she’s just a character but the music and the artwork and the personality of this person is a lot like me in the end.

Anyway onto my recent events. My morning started off well thanks to my blog girls comments and most of all my post from my girl Steph! She’s one of the only bloggers I talk to outside of blog world on FB and stuff and her shout out to me made me smile for sure so thanks so much Steph! You will find a link to her awesome blog below.

I’m starting to freak out cause I’m going to Christchurch TOMORROW to meet my biological father. I haven’t been sleeping very well this week and I think it’s a combo of not having my girls around me anymore and meeting him and probably 50 other people. I’m the first to admit that I am a crazy ass bitch and not shy mostly. But still this is just going to be intense! I’m so shocked at myself that i've followed through and I haven’t forced one of the boys to come with me. I’m probably going to be blogging about my nerves while I wait at the airport for my aunty and cousin. They’re getting in like 3 hours after me and its definitely gonna be a struggle to stay awake. But oh well maybe I can sleep on the plane.

I miss the girls something chronic at the moment. I want to be with them and I want them there for me but it just aint happening at the moment. Guess I really have lost them. Oh well shit happens in life huh? Ugh i'm to tired to post anymore lol I had a very shit nights sleep but I will post again tomorrow from the airport probably!