Well my frustration levels with the world are extremely high at the moment. I just cant escape the drama no matter what I do to avoid it.
Yesterday I was talking to my friend Doug on Facebook who you may remember as my part time stalker. Anyway I haven’t seen him in awhile as he moved outta town and when he got back together with his ex we stopped talking, because I’m guessing she didn’t like me anymore. We were just chatting and stuff and I asked him if he had been to Hadley and Nics place and stuff and we chatted a bit about that and then he dropped a bomb on me and told me that Toni had recently tried to commit suicide.
Now being that those bitches walked outta my life 6 months ago and since then have been nothing but pains in my ass, to be brutally honest, I don’t give a flying fuck about any of them. They don’t matter to me in the slightest. Even so hearing that threw me a little and text Carlos to ask him if it was true which he informed me it was. He then asked me if it was alright that he told her that the rumors were out and I told him it was fine but I wasn’t going to say where I heard it from as that’s not my place.
Just a side note to this as well- only five people know about Tonis attention seeking- Carl, Nic, Hads, Gen and Jordon. The person who told Doug was Marc who would’ve been told by Hadley meaning that they all have serious trust issues with each other if you ask me. Shit these bitches can’t even keep something like that a secret from other people. God im glad im out of that twisted shit.
Anyway me and carlos were texting each other about it the whole way home and then he randomly text me to ask when id be home so I could go for dinner with him if I wanted. I said yip and got home and kncked on his bedroom door as he was in there hiding from our flatmate and he was on the phone to toni. As soon as he got off the phone he sprinted out the door pretty much and made me rush out with him and we left to go get some KFC. While we were waiting carlos had a missed call from our home line and I got a text from toni asking me to call her. When we got home I asked aroha why she had called and she said that Toni and nicola had turned up looking for me! despite the fact carl told Toni on the phone that I wasn’t home when she asked to speak to me and despite the fact I didn’t text her back. Then I got another text from her saying “please can you talk to me I know im asking a lot but you don’t understand blah blah please tell me who said it etc”. after about an hour of thinking about it I text her back and said ‘im only texting you back so you don’t come to my house or call me. Im not going to tell you who told me as im not out to shit stir. All will say is that carl did not tell me and whoever you have told has a big mouth.” Then I got another two messages saying I don’t think your stirring bblah blah and all this other shiz so I text her one last time and said “I understand the severity of suicide-I lost my 9 year old cousin so do not try and guilt trip me. if you are having problems dealing with this then I suggest you reach out to one of your friends or seek professional help. I don’t want anything to do with your groups dramas and I closed the chapter on your part of my life a long time ago and im not going to reopen it. I wont be telling you who said it and would appreciate being left alone.”
And thankfully I didn’t hear from her again tho I later found out that nicola was texting carl trying to get him to make me text toni back and when he said they had no right to ask for my help she said “ ask her how shes going to feel if we get a call tomorrow saying tonis dead and she did nothing to help”
Seriously makes me want to cut a bitch aye. Cant believe they would try that shit! Ugh anyway I feel so much better now ive gotten that out. I wasn’t too harsh towards them was i? cause I feel guilty today although I know that shes not really my responsibility..
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Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Monday, March 16, 2009
Happy Birthday To Me!!!
So im officially 21! Jealous much? Haha nah I feel a wee bit older but other than that I just plain feel tired! Im proud to say I remember my whole night and have no blanks despite the volume of booze I consumed!
Saturday started off well. I went out for brunch with my mum and aunty and we just hung out and talked the morning away which was nice. I found out that I have a brother who my own bio dad hasn’t even met. So that’s pretty weird to know that, like what if ive met him and don’t even know? Its been on my mind ever since then and it gives me even more reason to meet this father of mine. My aunty gave me the coolest collage of my family and some stuff to do with the native tribe im from which means a lot. I have no understanding of my Maori side so I do want to learn for sure. My auntys present goes perfectly with the key mum and paul my step dad gave me. I love it so much. Im gonna post a few photos uup so ill make sure I do that. I don’t actually have much to say about the party. I think I am now a legend lol. I did 8 yager bombs and drunk prob 10 vodkas and was still standing at the end of the night! Very unusual for a 21st. I did however chuck at the end of the night when we got home. damn denny’s chilli fries weren’t sitting well in my tummy I guess. Im still pretty tired aye! I went to bed at like 5 on Sunday morning and was up before 9. I guess that redbull was well and truly making its way through my blood stream. Haha we went n got bigmacs for breakfast and then cleaned up after the party. I felt so gross when all the alcohol started sweating it out.
Marc and the bodyguard didn’t stay long but I had quite a few people who did! It was so nice to see who came and who didn’t and see you know who is really there for you. I cant express how much it meant to me to have the others there ya know. Me n carlos seem to be repairing our relationship which is awesome. Im really stoked. I was back to calling him my big brother on sturday which I think was good for both of us.
Nic left early with hads which was disappointing. He was so tired like asleep at one of the tables tired but still… she was pretty gutted specially cause they ended up having a fight… she was just like “I left my best friends 21st for this crap.”. me n nic have come a long way I think. We had a nice talk on Saturday and she said some very nice things.
Im pretty damn lucky I didn’t have a heart attack drinking that many red bulls haha. The boys got me four n then the girls got me another 7 seperatly buut I only ended up doing 8/ tonz was so far trashed that she couldn’t stand and was vomiting! Not a pretty sight. Kinda disappointing as well but hey not much I can do now! Anyways I needa catch up on my work so heres some photos and ill post some more later!
Saturday started off well. I went out for brunch with my mum and aunty and we just hung out and talked the morning away which was nice. I found out that I have a brother who my own bio dad hasn’t even met. So that’s pretty weird to know that, like what if ive met him and don’t even know? Its been on my mind ever since then and it gives me even more reason to meet this father of mine. My aunty gave me the coolest collage of my family and some stuff to do with the native tribe im from which means a lot. I have no understanding of my Maori side so I do want to learn for sure. My auntys present goes perfectly with the key mum and paul my step dad gave me. I love it so much. Im gonna post a few photos uup so ill make sure I do that. I don’t actually have much to say about the party. I think I am now a legend lol. I did 8 yager bombs and drunk prob 10 vodkas and was still standing at the end of the night! Very unusual for a 21st. I did however chuck at the end of the night when we got home. damn denny’s chilli fries weren’t sitting well in my tummy I guess. Im still pretty tired aye! I went to bed at like 5 on Sunday morning and was up before 9. I guess that redbull was well and truly making its way through my blood stream. Haha we went n got bigmacs for breakfast and then cleaned up after the party. I felt so gross when all the alcohol started sweating it out.
Marc and the bodyguard didn’t stay long but I had quite a few people who did! It was so nice to see who came and who didn’t and see you know who is really there for you. I cant express how much it meant to me to have the others there ya know. Me n carlos seem to be repairing our relationship which is awesome. Im really stoked. I was back to calling him my big brother on sturday which I think was good for both of us.
Nic left early with hads which was disappointing. He was so tired like asleep at one of the tables tired but still… she was pretty gutted specially cause they ended up having a fight… she was just like “I left my best friends 21st for this crap.”. me n nic have come a long way I think. We had a nice talk on Saturday and she said some very nice things.
Im pretty damn lucky I didn’t have a heart attack drinking that many red bulls haha. The boys got me four n then the girls got me another 7 seperatly buut I only ended up doing 8/ tonz was so far trashed that she couldn’t stand and was vomiting! Not a pretty sight. Kinda disappointing as well but hey not much I can do now! Anyways I needa catch up on my work so heres some photos and ill post some more later!
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Stupid Computers! And a weekend update...
well i just wrote the longest ever post and then my computer fucked out so thats all down the drain now!
Ok well im gonna do some bullet points to give you the quick rundown cause im so not gonna type all of what I said out again!
1- I nearly hooked up with the bday boy aka “the bodyguard”. Towards the end of the night we were all over each other and he kept talking to me about doug and how im way too good for him etc and deserve only the best. It was really sweet. We were holding hands and hugging and stuff all night! We woulda looked like a couple to outsiders. Till he got called away. I was so sad haha.
2- doug kissed me n I told him to piss off. He kept trying to talk to me but I avoided him and told him I was way to drunk to deal with this shit. I think he got the hint. I havnt heard from him again!
3- marcs STUPID girlfriend officially hates me. she thought I was tryna steal her man. WTF!!!!! It aint my fault im more fun than her and me n marc are friends. I wonder if she knows what actually went on with me n him!
4- Nic n hads are officially a couple now. Its so good im so happy for them!
5- I feel like a dick after how drunk I was. Who ever said that drinking straight from the wine bottle is a good idea was VERY sadly mistaken. Never again!
6- what is wrong with me that I have to tell nic and hads that ive always been attracted to tyler and wanna hook up with him?
7- 5 days till my birthday! I cant freaking wait tho im having slight panic attacks that no one will show up!
8- im a bit nervous to see tyler again.
9- umm not sure what else I have going on but yeah that’s my update guys.
10- I met two hot guys- Kelly and Adam that are crazy and so much fun! Hopefully we hang out with them again!
I need some advice tho. Should I be feeling embarrassed bout the Tyler thing and was I too mean to doug?
*******UPDATE*********
doug just text me to apologize for his behaviour so thats good!
Ok well im gonna do some bullet points to give you the quick rundown cause im so not gonna type all of what I said out again!
1- I nearly hooked up with the bday boy aka “the bodyguard”. Towards the end of the night we were all over each other and he kept talking to me about doug and how im way too good for him etc and deserve only the best. It was really sweet. We were holding hands and hugging and stuff all night! We woulda looked like a couple to outsiders. Till he got called away. I was so sad haha.
2- doug kissed me n I told him to piss off. He kept trying to talk to me but I avoided him and told him I was way to drunk to deal with this shit. I think he got the hint. I havnt heard from him again!
3- marcs STUPID girlfriend officially hates me. she thought I was tryna steal her man. WTF!!!!! It aint my fault im more fun than her and me n marc are friends. I wonder if she knows what actually went on with me n him!
4- Nic n hads are officially a couple now. Its so good im so happy for them!
5- I feel like a dick after how drunk I was. Who ever said that drinking straight from the wine bottle is a good idea was VERY sadly mistaken. Never again!
6- what is wrong with me that I have to tell nic and hads that ive always been attracted to tyler and wanna hook up with him?
7- 5 days till my birthday! I cant freaking wait tho im having slight panic attacks that no one will show up!
8- im a bit nervous to see tyler again.
9- umm not sure what else I have going on but yeah that’s my update guys.
10- I met two hot guys- Kelly and Adam that are crazy and so much fun! Hopefully we hang out with them again!
I need some advice tho. Should I be feeling embarrassed bout the Tyler thing and was I too mean to doug?
*******UPDATE*********
doug just text me to apologize for his behaviour so thats good!
Monday, March 2, 2009
Warning Signs!
Okayyyyy…
So it would appear that Marc and Hads are worried about me… Nic confeesed to Hads on Sunday night that they were… I rang nic yesterday after work, cause we talk on the way home most days and she told me. I couldn’t quite believe it. They think he is going to hurt me. but it was helpful to know hes sleeping with three people at the mo. I knew he wasn’t jut chasing me but omg come on! It kinda rang alarm bells for me that his own besties are worried bout me hooking up with him. And being that im still undecided it doesn’t help. Hes really harassing me now about meeting up! So I needa decide what to do! specially cause it’s the Bodyguards 21st this weekend so he will def be there. Me n nic are gonna get fucked up haha. Should be such an awesome night! I cant freaking wait! That and my 21st is like 11 days away! Aghhhh so soon!
Also another thing that pissed me off last night was Ben n Alex (my two oldest guy mates) randomly showed up shirtless and carrying a chilly bin filled with beer and bourbon haha. Man have those boys filled out since high school ;-). Anyway Doug was texting me non stop as per usual and Ben noticed my phone going off and came and sat on my knee to read all my texts lol and asked me a few questions etc. then Gen decided to show them a pic of Doug and Ben n Alex and Gen got on this huge trip of telling me not to hook up with him. I actually had Ben n Alex sitting on either side of me going you are too good for him please don’t do it you deserve better blah blah. It was kinda hurtful and upsetting. Not to mention Carl got them started on me being a lesbian. They keep telling me they will still love me if I am lol but there aint no way that I am thank you! I like my penis far too much haha. Well this post is kind of a rant/? Who knows but im confused about Doug.
Should I listen to my boys comments bout their own boy or do I just go against it all? Im so confused..i know I don’t really find Doug attractive but with everyone being hooked up I wanna have some fun…
I have a little bit extra to add! I have a major owie on my leg! Alex whipped me with the wet dish cloth last night and now i have a fat as bruise! Hahaha go the war trophies!
So it would appear that Marc and Hads are worried about me… Nic confeesed to Hads on Sunday night that they were… I rang nic yesterday after work, cause we talk on the way home most days and she told me. I couldn’t quite believe it. They think he is going to hurt me. but it was helpful to know hes sleeping with three people at the mo. I knew he wasn’t jut chasing me but omg come on! It kinda rang alarm bells for me that his own besties are worried bout me hooking up with him. And being that im still undecided it doesn’t help. Hes really harassing me now about meeting up! So I needa decide what to do! specially cause it’s the Bodyguards 21st this weekend so he will def be there. Me n nic are gonna get fucked up haha. Should be such an awesome night! I cant freaking wait! That and my 21st is like 11 days away! Aghhhh so soon!
Also another thing that pissed me off last night was Ben n Alex (my two oldest guy mates) randomly showed up shirtless and carrying a chilly bin filled with beer and bourbon haha. Man have those boys filled out since high school ;-). Anyway Doug was texting me non stop as per usual and Ben noticed my phone going off and came and sat on my knee to read all my texts lol and asked me a few questions etc. then Gen decided to show them a pic of Doug and Ben n Alex and Gen got on this huge trip of telling me not to hook up with him. I actually had Ben n Alex sitting on either side of me going you are too good for him please don’t do it you deserve better blah blah. It was kinda hurtful and upsetting. Not to mention Carl got them started on me being a lesbian. They keep telling me they will still love me if I am lol but there aint no way that I am thank you! I like my penis far too much haha. Well this post is kind of a rant/? Who knows but im confused about Doug.
Should I listen to my boys comments bout their own boy or do I just go against it all? Im so confused..i know I don’t really find Doug attractive but with everyone being hooked up I wanna have some fun…
I have a little bit extra to add! I have a major owie on my leg! Alex whipped me with the wet dish cloth last night and now i have a fat as bruise! Hahaha go the war trophies!
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Up in smoke!
My weekend was my first sober weekend that ive had in awhile! It was pretty good tho! We went to the mall on Friday after work and got some dinner and went to the cd/dvd store and all walked away with something new lol. I bought my 3rd album from incubus who is my favorite ever and was given the fourth by Shane! Yay! I was so happy lol. Gen bought herself a cod and a movie and nick bought “American history X”. Definitely a movie worth watching! We went to the supermarket, bought some munchies and met the boys at home to watch the movie. It was quite interesting to watch the movie with the fact that all my friends are white lol. Me n Nicola nearly had a drama over it. It really pissed me off that she found the rape in the shower scene more disturbing then the racial hate killing scene…I actually couldn’t believe it. It really makes you think tho. In NZ I think we are so lucky to have the diversity and acceptance that we do have!
Me Tonz n nic went out for lunch on Saturday while gen n Carlos went on a date! So cute! Had the yummiest lunch! Then we came home and had a smoke! Haha was so funny. I love it when nic gets wasted. She started speaking to Shane in this English accent for some reason lol. It was bad at one point tho because our neighbor looked out her window and Tonz just pointed and laughed lo. Shane came outside with a massive bud for us “to enjoy your day ladies” so we went inside to watch a movie…Forest Gump! Perfect movie to watch when you’ve had a smoke! It took us like and hour to get the movie going tho cause we couldn’t work out the DVD player lol. Good times! In the end we decided to have another smoke before watching it, then ordered pizza and watched! Was an awesome way to spend the afternoon! We all had nap times and then did a bit of wake and bake and waited for the others to get home so we could go play black light mini golf. The six of us met hads up there and played. Probably one of the funniest games ive ever played. Poor hads was the only straight one lol.. Nic n hads took Tonz home after the game and me Shane and Carlos had another smoke and just sat outside pissing ourselves. Carl when hes stoned is so crazy like you actually just wanna roll on the floor laughing! I wish I had of been taping that shit lol! Once nic n hads got back we took hads outside for a smoke and then gen n Carl went to bed. Me nic Shane and hads started watching stepbrothers but we all fell asleep lol.. I woke up at like 1.30 and hads was on the floor! Shane had gone to bed and I went to bed too! Apparently nic and hads stayed there till out 6 that morning.
I went to my aunties baby shower yesterday! Only 4 more weeks till my cousin is born. I’m so excited! It’s the first grandchild on that side of the family since my sister was born. I think she’s finding it hard that she’s not gonna be the baby of the family anymore lol. Oh well I just cant wait to see and meet the baby! Her name will be ruby! She will be such a princess if she’s anything like my aunty haha. I went to bed so early last night! Me n Shane had a smoke at like 7.30 it was so buzzy! Ive never smoked just with him and being in a house with three other straight people! Not the one mate! Not the one!
On the note of my sister.. Im a little bit worried bout how she’s going to handle my 21st. its in 19 days! Yay! Everytime me n mum talk about it and try to make plans she trys to turn the conversation onto something else or if I bring up my relatives from my biological fathers side she just shuts down completely. There are three of my aunties on my bio dads side coming to my 21dt and I don’t want her to feel funny! Any advice?
Me Tonz n nic went out for lunch on Saturday while gen n Carlos went on a date! So cute! Had the yummiest lunch! Then we came home and had a smoke! Haha was so funny. I love it when nic gets wasted. She started speaking to Shane in this English accent for some reason lol. It was bad at one point tho because our neighbor looked out her window and Tonz just pointed and laughed lo. Shane came outside with a massive bud for us “to enjoy your day ladies” so we went inside to watch a movie…Forest Gump! Perfect movie to watch when you’ve had a smoke! It took us like and hour to get the movie going tho cause we couldn’t work out the DVD player lol. Good times! In the end we decided to have another smoke before watching it, then ordered pizza and watched! Was an awesome way to spend the afternoon! We all had nap times and then did a bit of wake and bake and waited for the others to get home so we could go play black light mini golf. The six of us met hads up there and played. Probably one of the funniest games ive ever played. Poor hads was the only straight one lol.. Nic n hads took Tonz home after the game and me Shane and Carlos had another smoke and just sat outside pissing ourselves. Carl when hes stoned is so crazy like you actually just wanna roll on the floor laughing! I wish I had of been taping that shit lol! Once nic n hads got back we took hads outside for a smoke and then gen n Carl went to bed. Me nic Shane and hads started watching stepbrothers but we all fell asleep lol.. I woke up at like 1.30 and hads was on the floor! Shane had gone to bed and I went to bed too! Apparently nic and hads stayed there till out 6 that morning.
I went to my aunties baby shower yesterday! Only 4 more weeks till my cousin is born. I’m so excited! It’s the first grandchild on that side of the family since my sister was born. I think she’s finding it hard that she’s not gonna be the baby of the family anymore lol. Oh well I just cant wait to see and meet the baby! Her name will be ruby! She will be such a princess if she’s anything like my aunty haha. I went to bed so early last night! Me n Shane had a smoke at like 7.30 it was so buzzy! Ive never smoked just with him and being in a house with three other straight people! Not the one mate! Not the one!
On the note of my sister.. Im a little bit worried bout how she’s going to handle my 21st. its in 19 days! Yay! Everytime me n mum talk about it and try to make plans she trys to turn the conversation onto something else or if I bring up my relatives from my biological fathers side she just shuts down completely. There are three of my aunties on my bio dads side coming to my 21dt and I don’t want her to feel funny! Any advice?
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Longest of long weekends!
Wow whatta weekend I have just had. We had a long weekend here in NZ to celebrate basically the beginning of our country merging with the English settlers that came here. Its to celebrate the treaty that was signed at the time and luckily for us it fell on a Friday this year so we had a long weekend.
On Thursday night I had my mum, dad, stepdad and sister over for dinner cause it was just me n shane home that night. We all had a few beers and a yummy bbq and it as fun hanging out. Then nicola came home n me n her started on the vodka, apple sours and lemonade combo. Mmm it is such a nice drink. Hads ended up coming round and we were all sitting round when marc text asking if we could pick him up. We decided minus shane just to go to his house and hang out. We ended up waking like three other people up and they all came over and joined us. Marc and the jew were tryna get me to hook up with doug one of their friends whose been texting me for awhile. Was def interesting. There was no way I was going there with doug he isn’t realy my type. And the fact hes also hit on tonz before is off putting as well lol. We ended up going home at about 4.30. was def a long night and I needed my sleep the next morning. Which I so didn’t get lol. I managed to drag nic out with me n mum to see my auntys new house that she just bought with her partner which was cool. Its an amazing house! we just hung out for the day in the sweltering heat then went home to rest and relax. We just ended up having a few drinks at home on Friday with me nic hads shane n tonz. It was a bit of a sad day for me cause it goes back to when I had my abortion. I was due on the 6th of feb so I always end up thinking bout it… and I was drinking gin which I fully cant drink anymore lol. So I stopped drinking and went to bed pretty early after nic seranded me to sleep lol
On Saturday it was all pretty much the same. Laxed during the day and then we went out for dinner that night and then went home and had some drinks. My morning yesterday did not start well tho! I woke up to shane smashing on my bedroom door telling me I needed to move my car. I told him where my keys were and next minute he had taken off in my car down the road! I was so freaking pissed! He doesn’t have a licsense and would have been over the alcohol limit and he didn’t ask me if he could borrow my car just took off. It made me so fucking mad and I still am now. He has yet to say sorry or anything and we havnt even spoken since then. Grr I was mad! That started my day off bad and it went from there. The inconsiderate fucks that I live with were going out last night to get everyone dinner but me! it mad me so mad and upset like hello I live here to! In the end I went n got my own dinner and took off to another friends place. It wasn’t even worth being there causeof how ive been feeling.
Lately I feel very left out etc at home and ive been crying etc everyday. I don’t know whats going on but it sucks. Its my 21st soon and I wanna be there with my best friends not the people formerly known as best friends y aknow. I needa get out of the place that im in mentally at the mo… grrr so annoyed with myself!
On Thursday night I had my mum, dad, stepdad and sister over for dinner cause it was just me n shane home that night. We all had a few beers and a yummy bbq and it as fun hanging out. Then nicola came home n me n her started on the vodka, apple sours and lemonade combo. Mmm it is such a nice drink. Hads ended up coming round and we were all sitting round when marc text asking if we could pick him up. We decided minus shane just to go to his house and hang out. We ended up waking like three other people up and they all came over and joined us. Marc and the jew were tryna get me to hook up with doug one of their friends whose been texting me for awhile. Was def interesting. There was no way I was going there with doug he isn’t realy my type. And the fact hes also hit on tonz before is off putting as well lol. We ended up going home at about 4.30. was def a long night and I needed my sleep the next morning. Which I so didn’t get lol. I managed to drag nic out with me n mum to see my auntys new house that she just bought with her partner which was cool. Its an amazing house! we just hung out for the day in the sweltering heat then went home to rest and relax. We just ended up having a few drinks at home on Friday with me nic hads shane n tonz. It was a bit of a sad day for me cause it goes back to when I had my abortion. I was due on the 6th of feb so I always end up thinking bout it… and I was drinking gin which I fully cant drink anymore lol. So I stopped drinking and went to bed pretty early after nic seranded me to sleep lol
On Saturday it was all pretty much the same. Laxed during the day and then we went out for dinner that night and then went home and had some drinks. My morning yesterday did not start well tho! I woke up to shane smashing on my bedroom door telling me I needed to move my car. I told him where my keys were and next minute he had taken off in my car down the road! I was so freaking pissed! He doesn’t have a licsense and would have been over the alcohol limit and he didn’t ask me if he could borrow my car just took off. It made me so fucking mad and I still am now. He has yet to say sorry or anything and we havnt even spoken since then. Grr I was mad! That started my day off bad and it went from there. The inconsiderate fucks that I live with were going out last night to get everyone dinner but me! it mad me so mad and upset like hello I live here to! In the end I went n got my own dinner and took off to another friends place. It wasn’t even worth being there causeof how ive been feeling.
Lately I feel very left out etc at home and ive been crying etc everyday. I don’t know whats going on but it sucks. Its my 21st soon and I wanna be there with my best friends not the people formerly known as best friends y aknow. I needa get out of the place that im in mentally at the mo… grrr so annoyed with myself!
Monday, January 26, 2009
My Weekend Summary
My weekend summary…
I ended up being home alone with shane this weekend which was hmmm…different I would say to the least…I got home from work aon Friday and I was sooo tired. I worked my ass off last week and was over it all so I just flopped on the couch and watched some of my one tree hill dvds that I borrowed…I got season 1 and season 2 off tonz cause I havnt seen all of the shows in those seasons so it was mint. Wnet in got BK for dinner and did nothing…then had a beer with shane when he got home.. in the morning we picked up amy a chick he works with and went to the beach for a few hours. I got so sunburnt…it was fun tho! Me n amy spent the whole time just like mocking shane lol but hey its payback for all the sexual shit he says to me ALL the time! Then we went and got some stuff for a bbq and headed home thinking it was just gonna be me n shane all night. So I rung one of my only friends still in Auckland and got her to come over..i may of mentioned lisa before? We don’t really get on that well but when we do its pretty fun. So she came over for a few drinks and we just laxed n stuff then hads text me asking how my night was etcd and then said marc wanted to know what I was doing so I just said laxing and they said they would come over and save me. yay! It was the first time ive hung out with them by myself but it wasn’t too bad…we went over to the school to play on the playgroung lol juvenile I know and then just went back to mine to watch this movie marc said I wouldn’t like. He was right I didn’t like it! But I ended up falling asleep along with everyone except hads lol. I woke up at like 3.30 and realized the movie had finished and hads woke the boys up to tell them it was time to go…but they all fell asleep again lol. I noticed they were leaving but I was so ready to sleep lol so I fell back asleep even tho my bed is like 2 metres away. I slept on the tiniest little like almost one seater couch lol. I woke up at like 7.30 as well and the boys were still there lol so Sunday was just spent laxing and watching one tree hill. I went to a 21st as well for my cousin but everyone was so drunk and annoying that I was home by like 11. I had a nap before I went out so I couldn’t sleep lol. Was very sucky but I just watched more one tree hill and then went to bed…
All my flatmates came back yesterday but they just felt like strangers…like gens not really talking to me or whatever so I don’t know whats going on…but there isn’t much I can do to changes it…I need more love adventures…I just miss having someone hold me as im falling asleep ya know…all that sorta stuff I miss so much…but its so hard to get out there and find someone and to be honest im not lookin… I guess im just waiting to see if someone will stumble along…
I ended up being home alone with shane this weekend which was hmmm…different I would say to the least…I got home from work aon Friday and I was sooo tired. I worked my ass off last week and was over it all so I just flopped on the couch and watched some of my one tree hill dvds that I borrowed…I got season 1 and season 2 off tonz cause I havnt seen all of the shows in those seasons so it was mint. Wnet in got BK for dinner and did nothing…then had a beer with shane when he got home.. in the morning we picked up amy a chick he works with and went to the beach for a few hours. I got so sunburnt…it was fun tho! Me n amy spent the whole time just like mocking shane lol but hey its payback for all the sexual shit he says to me ALL the time! Then we went and got some stuff for a bbq and headed home thinking it was just gonna be me n shane all night. So I rung one of my only friends still in Auckland and got her to come over..i may of mentioned lisa before? We don’t really get on that well but when we do its pretty fun. So she came over for a few drinks and we just laxed n stuff then hads text me asking how my night was etcd and then said marc wanted to know what I was doing so I just said laxing and they said they would come over and save me. yay! It was the first time ive hung out with them by myself but it wasn’t too bad…we went over to the school to play on the playgroung lol juvenile I know and then just went back to mine to watch this movie marc said I wouldn’t like. He was right I didn’t like it! But I ended up falling asleep along with everyone except hads lol. I woke up at like 3.30 and realized the movie had finished and hads woke the boys up to tell them it was time to go…but they all fell asleep again lol. I noticed they were leaving but I was so ready to sleep lol so I fell back asleep even tho my bed is like 2 metres away. I slept on the tiniest little like almost one seater couch lol. I woke up at like 7.30 as well and the boys were still there lol so Sunday was just spent laxing and watching one tree hill. I went to a 21st as well for my cousin but everyone was so drunk and annoying that I was home by like 11. I had a nap before I went out so I couldn’t sleep lol. Was very sucky but I just watched more one tree hill and then went to bed…
All my flatmates came back yesterday but they just felt like strangers…like gens not really talking to me or whatever so I don’t know whats going on…but there isn’t much I can do to changes it…I need more love adventures…I just miss having someone hold me as im falling asleep ya know…all that sorta stuff I miss so much…but its so hard to get out there and find someone and to be honest im not lookin… I guess im just waiting to see if someone will stumble along…
Monday, January 12, 2009
Awkwardness
so last night was awkward to say the least...i asked shane if he was gonna be able to deal with the whole seeing marc situation and he said he would try not to kick him in the shins…drama at home so didn’t make it any better…gen n nicola weren’t gonna come to the game cause carl thought they were only coming so gen could see marc. These issues needa be put to bed! Hads was arriving at the game as we pulled in and shane launched a stream of abuse the second he saw his car. Thank go hads didn’t hear cause he didn’t deserve it! I told him to grow up and sat down to have a ciggy and a chat with hads. It was cool to see him especially cause we been getting on good as lately! Marc and doug were there and inside and hads went in to see them and doug came out. We talked bout the cricket match then marc came out and I just kept talking. I don’t know why im such a bitch that I didn’t even aknowledge him! But I didn’t…I went in later and said evening then chatted with hads a bit more…apparently I told him bout the pole dancing lmao. That’s embarrassing! But after that it was all good. We played and won against the team we always have problems with and then everyone went there sepreate ways…. So should be an interesting night on satturday…I have my own shit to worry about. I used to be friends with this chick call Danni tho her name for this blog will be slutty pants! She is one of those people who will drag you down. She has a 2 year old son who she never really looks after…shes left him on the side of the road before cause she didn’t wanna look after him…she drinks most days and does a fair amount of drugs. I hung out with her for awhile and ill admt that she was fun. But when I decided to get rid of the people in my life that bought me down she was one of them… and her mum who is a fat ugly interfering bitch didn’t like it. She hates me cause I told her that her and her family could go get fucked. We will call her the beast. The beast made the start of 2008 soawful for me that I nearly had a breakdown. At gens surprise 20th that I organized she sat in a circle with some girls my age and just buitched about me saying some awful shit. And now shes rsvp’d to gens 21st. she works with gen you see and calrs brother was dumb enough to get her youngest daughter knocked up. If it is another we hate zara club this time I will leave. I cant stand that shit and I was in tears before the end of last years party…im not letting it happen again! Hmmm…I have a lot of drama haha. I better start work now!
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Immature boys arent worth my time!
Ok so we seem to be in the miidddle of a full scale prank. In my last post I was talking about how marc had aired all his shit on facebook. Then he changed it to say sorry etc but I was just like whatever. We went and worked at the club on Friday night then came home for what was meant to be the trivial pursuit night. But the boys didn’t show… whatta surprise! What was actually surprising was that we woke up in the morning to find a bed in our driveway. Im not shitting you an actual bed. I was so mad. So they could find the time to bring a BED to our house but couldn’t even text to say they weren’t coming???? Wat the fuck! We moved the bed down the driveway and decided to forget bout them. Everyone was going to a bbq at carls n shanes bros house so me n nic decided to go to our mate nicoles house and have a few drinks. It was so boring as usual! So we left with nic a bit tipsy and me deciding it was revenge time. We went n picked tonz up and got some supplies. Condoms pegs glad wrap so much other stuff. Our first stp was this guy an ex of nics who fully fucked her over. Tonz went and put the condoms filled with moustureizer in the letter box and all over his car then nic egged it! Was soooo funny and as we were leaving the street we passed them on the way home haha! Next up was hadleys house. when we got there it was still a bit light so we just put some condoms etc on his car…same for tylers…then we gladwrapped marcs letterbox cause he doesn’t have a car..after we drove around just causing shit and being immature for awhile gen called and asked us to drop her off. We picked her up then went to the supermarket to get some good supplies for hadleys car! Smoked fish, rotten tomatoes, milk everything. I was mad and it was time they knew it. We dropped gen off and headed up there. Nic was the one who did most of it but we spent probably 10 minutes decorating his car! It must of stunk in the morning lol. We even glad wrapped the tray of his ute. Then we heard a noise and took off. When we came back his mum was outside haha we musty of woken her up. After that we just chilled for ages then went to bed. In the morning we all went out for brunch then came home and cleaned up and just spent sometime as a flat…well with tonz as well lol.
I went to bed at about 10.30ish and was just asleep when I got a text from shane saying if the boys showed up at the house again he was gonna call the cops. Shane had text gen n carl as well and they both got of bed. I went outside and there was shaving cream all over mine n shanes cars and they had put like gel all over my door andles and shanes. We were just sorta like oh well and went back to bed when there was a really loud bang on my windows and the ranch sliders in the lounge and then I heard running. We all got up again and saw they had water bombed the house, it was getting old fast cause unlike them who sleep till noon we all get up at 6 to work ya know. When I got up this morning to go to work I found they had also left a fridge in the driveway… wat the fuck? I guess there showing there ages now huh! Or more should I say there showing the fact that they are just uni students living at home, not working and still getting money off there parents… I was so mad cause I had to go to work in this other new building which is further away so needed my sleep. And I ended up getting like 4 hours cause everytime I heard a noise I skectched out. Omg carl just text me and said e went to check the mail and they had smoke bombed our letter box for fucks sake! What if it had of caught on fire…im guessing this is now the end of the friendships…
I went to bed at about 10.30ish and was just asleep when I got a text from shane saying if the boys showed up at the house again he was gonna call the cops. Shane had text gen n carl as well and they both got of bed. I went outside and there was shaving cream all over mine n shanes cars and they had put like gel all over my door andles and shanes. We were just sorta like oh well and went back to bed when there was a really loud bang on my windows and the ranch sliders in the lounge and then I heard running. We all got up again and saw they had water bombed the house, it was getting old fast cause unlike them who sleep till noon we all get up at 6 to work ya know. When I got up this morning to go to work I found they had also left a fridge in the driveway… wat the fuck? I guess there showing there ages now huh! Or more should I say there showing the fact that they are just uni students living at home, not working and still getting money off there parents… I was so mad cause I had to go to work in this other new building which is further away so needed my sleep. And I ended up getting like 4 hours cause everytime I heard a noise I skectched out. Omg carl just text me and said e went to check the mail and they had smoke bombed our letter box for fucks sake! What if it had of caught on fire…im guessing this is now the end of the friendships…
Sunday, November 23, 2008
my weekend
Well it is drama central in my life at the moment. I also got tagged but I will do that later on today cause my god I need to vent so bad!
Well me n my two besties were sitiing round on Saturday night talking when G came out with a confession. She is very unhappy in her relationship (with the guy whos like my big brother) and is thinking bout leaving him..once she started talking she didn’t stop. She told me n tonz that they hadn’t had sex in over three months and shit was just going down hill fast. It was just so weird and I don’t like seeing her hurt like this. Like shes such a strong person its unusual for her…
We had already made plans to go play some pranks on a few of our friends by gladwrapping there letter boxes hahaha so we went back to ours me n G could get ready. The boys were at ours getting ready to watch the league world cup and wanted us outta the house so they could have bouy time. We all got ready and weren’t really dressed in anything special. I had been wearing a mini and a singlet so I put a top jeans n boots on n same with G- we so weren’t dressed dressed up but when we went back into the lounge the boys were like where are you going (also would like to point out that M n his mate H were busy at a 21st). we told them the truth and said were going to do our prank. They were straight away suspicious. It was so fucked. Like I think it was cause shane was like oh yeah your gonna go see the boys blah blah blah which we had not intention to…so we left and the boys were okish I guess and we started driving around n doing our pranks…we had been textin M n H random shit all night so when 11 came they text to ask what we were upto cause the 21st was already over. We had just finished shrink wrapping our rival soccer clubs grounds lol and so we told them our next stop and headed to meet them and play some late night soccer haha. Also being that this was the first time me n M had seen each other since the whole hook up it was weird…
But we had all been hanging out with the boys for like an hour when all three of us girls phones went off…it was the boys asking where we were at etc…so I was straight up n told them that we were playing soccer and got asked who we were with so I told them…I didn’t think we had any reason to hide t and my big bruv got mad at me…so I decided to text and say that he should be able to trust me n nknow that I wouldn’t lie…they were thinking we had set this all up for some paranoid reason…which we hadn’t…after about another hour we decided to let off some fireworks but had to go find a spot so headed off to the beach and sat round talking and letting off a few fireworks…then M had this bright idea of going to another beach where there are these tunnels dso we headed there only to realize they were in another beach a bit further away…so we went there and ended up just climbing up this hill n sitting in the grass talking shit and having M find out all my embarrassing stories…it was pretty cool cause we were overlooking the whole city… we ended up getting home after 5am and me n G were not looking forward to going inside!
In the morning when we got up we were being givin the silent treatment…it was so fucked up…we had done nothing wrong and we were being ignored…after awhile and a few tears shane the ugly bastard ended up talking to us but big bruv held firm on the whole anger thing…which was not helping his case with G cause she was just getting madder. I had to go to family dinner so she went to M’s house to hang with him and I met up with them after and we just once again sat and talked avoiding going home..its so uncomfy and weird like all the vibes going round…but it was cool spending so much time with M…I may not know whats going on between us but he is awesome to hang with! Hehe we were texting till quite late last night!
Anyway I peaced it out with big bruv on my way home last night so that was all good and now I just have to help out my big bruv and G…cause this shit is getting me down…I don’t want them to break up but I think they might tonight…
Well me n my two besties were sitiing round on Saturday night talking when G came out with a confession. She is very unhappy in her relationship (with the guy whos like my big brother) and is thinking bout leaving him..once she started talking she didn’t stop. She told me n tonz that they hadn’t had sex in over three months and shit was just going down hill fast. It was just so weird and I don’t like seeing her hurt like this. Like shes such a strong person its unusual for her…
We had already made plans to go play some pranks on a few of our friends by gladwrapping there letter boxes hahaha so we went back to ours me n G could get ready. The boys were at ours getting ready to watch the league world cup and wanted us outta the house so they could have bouy time. We all got ready and weren’t really dressed in anything special. I had been wearing a mini and a singlet so I put a top jeans n boots on n same with G- we so weren’t dressed dressed up but when we went back into the lounge the boys were like where are you going (also would like to point out that M n his mate H were busy at a 21st). we told them the truth and said were going to do our prank. They were straight away suspicious. It was so fucked. Like I think it was cause shane was like oh yeah your gonna go see the boys blah blah blah which we had not intention to…so we left and the boys were okish I guess and we started driving around n doing our pranks…we had been textin M n H random shit all night so when 11 came they text to ask what we were upto cause the 21st was already over. We had just finished shrink wrapping our rival soccer clubs grounds lol and so we told them our next stop and headed to meet them and play some late night soccer haha. Also being that this was the first time me n M had seen each other since the whole hook up it was weird…
But we had all been hanging out with the boys for like an hour when all three of us girls phones went off…it was the boys asking where we were at etc…so I was straight up n told them that we were playing soccer and got asked who we were with so I told them…I didn’t think we had any reason to hide t and my big bruv got mad at me…so I decided to text and say that he should be able to trust me n nknow that I wouldn’t lie…they were thinking we had set this all up for some paranoid reason…which we hadn’t…after about another hour we decided to let off some fireworks but had to go find a spot so headed off to the beach and sat round talking and letting off a few fireworks…then M had this bright idea of going to another beach where there are these tunnels dso we headed there only to realize they were in another beach a bit further away…so we went there and ended up just climbing up this hill n sitting in the grass talking shit and having M find out all my embarrassing stories…it was pretty cool cause we were overlooking the whole city… we ended up getting home after 5am and me n G were not looking forward to going inside!
In the morning when we got up we were being givin the silent treatment…it was so fucked up…we had done nothing wrong and we were being ignored…after awhile and a few tears shane the ugly bastard ended up talking to us but big bruv held firm on the whole anger thing…which was not helping his case with G cause she was just getting madder. I had to go to family dinner so she went to M’s house to hang with him and I met up with them after and we just once again sat and talked avoiding going home..its so uncomfy and weird like all the vibes going round…but it was cool spending so much time with M…I may not know whats going on between us but he is awesome to hang with! Hehe we were texting till quite late last night!
Anyway I peaced it out with big bruv on my way home last night so that was all good and now I just have to help out my big bruv and G…cause this shit is getting me down…I don’t want them to break up but I think they might tonight…
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Whatta Weekend!!
Wow what a weekend! Ohk so where do I start…well Friday night we went n watched my best guy mates play soccer and had a few drinks on the sidelines then managed to give ourselves a ton of energy lol! So we were sitting round home on facebook and noticed that one of M’s boys had his number on there so we started texting him..we ended up inviting him to come out with us for a drive round the city that night buut he was already in bed so he invited us to his 21st on the Saturday. I was like yeah we should go but at the same time I didn’t wanna see M cause I hadnt heard from him etc and kinda figured we werent going anywhere,=…but my girls pointed out I can be friends with M’s friends without it being weird etc.
Saturday day we woke up and it was awesome hot weather so we headed to the beach to play cricket and have a picnic and just lax in general! Was such an awesome day lol. Then went home to have home,ade burgers and went shopiing to pick upa hot new top to wear out that night! I figured I could make M jealous cause I had plans to booty call a guy I met in a club last month!
We got to our local bar and found M’s besty drinking by himself L so we started to have a few drinks with him and I bought him a shot etc was already pretty tipsy cause me n one of my girls had polished of a couple of wine bottles before we went out :P! we were all just chilling with H when M and the rest of the boys turned up. I wasn’t gonan speak to M first and even tho he came over to the table and we were introduced to the rest of the boys I ignored him lol and kept on with my conversation… one of my girls tonz went into go talk to them and was gone for ages so me n my girl gen decided to do a walk by lol mature I know! As we walked past I realised M was in the doorway so I gave him a playful shove but didn’t say anything! And by the way I was dressed to kill! I had my high high high peep toe heels on with a short skirt and my nnew cleavage top…so anyway we all went n got drinks and were talking to a few of the boys while tonz was inside talking to M and a few others…then tonz walked over and was like umm M is into you hes just been asking if your still interested etc…I was like umm ok where did this come from but just decided to ignore it…
So I went back out to the boys n girls and noticed tonz was now sitting on the other side of the bar with M…I was like umm ohk then so he can talk to one of my best mates but not me.. I wasn’t really impressed lol…we were all sitting talking when all of a sudden I felt to hand on my waist and M was turning me round and kissing me in front of the whole bar!! Then walking away!!!! I was just like huh??? I was sitting next to one of M’s friends who said to me as soon as M was gone that I should enjoy it but think nothing of it…so I text tonz and told her what T had said and she was like come over here…I was like no im not a booty call! Next thing I know ive got K going come with me and dragging me over there…so M could ask me out on a date! So apparently were going out on Friday tho im not sure if it will happen. I was straight up with him cause I was pretty sober and he was drunk and I was like im not into being led on and if your drunk will you remmeber??? He claims yes so we will see…I text him last night but didn’t here back from him!!! Which got me pretty upset but not much I can do…I really like him ya know. Hes just so nice and weve known each other so long…I guess I can only play the waitig game…
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