I have two posts I will be doing today. One is to show you some artwork that is really speaking to me at the moment. I have it hanging on my wall in my bedroom! I have a slight obsession with Peyton Sawyer and it’s the stuff she’s done on One Tree Hill. I don’t care if its lame or whatever I like it and it speaks to me. So you will find that below! I know she’s just a character but the music and the artwork and the personality of this person is a lot like me in the end.
Anyway onto my recent events. My morning started off well thanks to my blog girls comments and most of all my post from my girl Steph! She’s one of the only bloggers I talk to outside of blog world on FB and stuff and her shout out to me made me smile for sure so thanks so much Steph! You will find a link to her awesome blog below.
I’m starting to freak out cause I’m going to Christchurch TOMORROW to meet my biological father. I haven’t been sleeping very well this week and I think it’s a combo of not having my girls around me anymore and meeting him and probably 50 other people. I’m the first to admit that I am a crazy ass bitch and not shy mostly. But still this is just going to be intense! I’m so shocked at myself that i've followed through and I haven’t forced one of the boys to come with me. I’m probably going to be blogging about my nerves while I wait at the airport for my aunty and cousin. They’re getting in like 3 hours after me and its definitely gonna be a struggle to stay awake. But oh well maybe I can sleep on the plane.
I miss the girls something chronic at the moment. I want to be with them and I want them there for me but it just aint happening at the moment. Guess I really have lost them. Oh well shit happens in life huh? Ugh i'm to tired to post anymore lol I had a very shit nights sleep but I will post again tomorrow from the airport probably!
Showing posts with label roadtrips. Show all posts
Showing posts with label roadtrips. Show all posts
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Family Ties
Well I may be about to take a massive step. As I mentioned in my last post, my bio father hasn’t exactly been in my life and ive started contact with the family again after nearly 20 years. I may be flying down to meet them in a month or so for Easter weekend. It’s a big step but I feel as if im ready to do it, they are my flesh and blood and I want them in my life and a part of it. I spoke to my aunty Roriana for the first time in my life last night. I was very very emotional afterwards but it was so good to talk to her. Im meeting her either on Friday or Saturday for brunch and to hang out. She said she has made me a collage of the family and stuff so that’s a really cool birthday present. If I do go down at easter it will be with gen n carlos. Were gonna fly down and then drive the rest of the 6 hours to get to where all my family will be. Its my uncles headstone unveiling so I don’t think I willl be able to deal with all the stuff on my own. And a holiday is always good times so just gotta see what happens after work when I see the others. Hopefully this comes to fruition.
Wow im 3 days away from turning 21. im so looking forward to it. I have about 50 or so people coming as well so that’ll be interesting. Carls sister who I had a massive fight ith last year asked if they were invited so that’s good. Weve recently started talking again and stuff so its still very strained and we don’t exactly hang out but it will be cool if they come. I had her and her husband on the invite list but in the end I wasn’t sure if I should say anything. Im glad heidi bought it up! God im so nervous and excited!!!!
Wow im 3 days away from turning 21. im so looking forward to it. I have about 50 or so people coming as well so that’ll be interesting. Carls sister who I had a massive fight ith last year asked if they were invited so that’s good. Weve recently started talking again and stuff so its still very strained and we don’t exactly hang out but it will be cool if they come. I had her and her husband on the invite list but in the end I wasn’t sure if I should say anything. Im glad heidi bought it up! God im so nervous and excited!!!!
Sunday, November 30, 2008
my weekend!
Ok so its Monday again and it’s the first day of December! Omg im freaking out! Only 24 more days till xmas and im going away to one of my most favourite places in the world in like 27 days! Arrrrggghhhh! So exciting!
Well this weekend was certainly interesting. Was so fun and relaxing. A group of us went down the line to a town about 2 and a half hours away to relax! Tonz aunty has a huge place with a kiwifruit orchard etc and a pool and its so fantastic to lax cause its where we went for our girls weeknd last month. We headed down there at about 4ish on Saturday and it was a tight squeeze in the car. Me tonz G Carlos n Marc were all crammed in like sardines. The trip down wasn’t too bad just all talking and singin along to the grease lightning sound track haha were so tragic! We got down there at like 7.30uish and grabbed dinner and went out to the house and jumped straight in the pool! It was so hot outside!
Things with me n marc were nothing special at this point. Then we got outta the pool and sat round having a few drinks and taking some photos. I love being a camera whore with my BFF’s haha. Then once tonz aunty had gone to bed we decided to go for a wander in the kiwifruit orchard and have a smoke. That’s about where things got different with me n marc…hes the worst person for giving off mixed messages. Like we came back to the house and we were all pretty wasted and I went to sit outside by myself and he came out and sat right next to me. Like pretty close. And then the others came out and I could just see what they were thinking. We were all talking etc and me n marc were flirting something chronic and it continued that way the whole night. But nothing happened. Its so frustrating cause in the morning I walked in on him n tonz tryna have a talk haha. He was like following me around when we were shopping as well.
But then I started thinking and ive kinda decided that im going to forget bout marc and only see him as a friend. I know that I sound like im really up down with all this stuff but I gotta put these barriers up cause I don’t wanna get hurt and I can see that comin. So im going to try and move on even tho I probably wont haha. I needa get out there and get some action happening haha. I have a bbq at marcs in a couple of weeks so that should be quite interesting! This blog rally has no point other than me getting it all out there haha I feel as if im just rambling!
Woop woop my trip away is only 27 days away! Hopefully I come back from that with lotsa good stories cause im hoping it is one 6 night party lol so should be great. Im a bit worried bout going away with nicola tho cause shes just so funny sometimes and like I don’t want us to be fighting while we are down there and end up coming back hating each other. She told carl the other day that she might be moving out…but she hasn’t told me yet so I wonder when that will be happeneing!!! Anyways my rambling is over! Im going back to work haha.
Well this weekend was certainly interesting. Was so fun and relaxing. A group of us went down the line to a town about 2 and a half hours away to relax! Tonz aunty has a huge place with a kiwifruit orchard etc and a pool and its so fantastic to lax cause its where we went for our girls weeknd last month. We headed down there at about 4ish on Saturday and it was a tight squeeze in the car. Me tonz G Carlos n Marc were all crammed in like sardines. The trip down wasn’t too bad just all talking and singin along to the grease lightning sound track haha were so tragic! We got down there at like 7.30uish and grabbed dinner and went out to the house and jumped straight in the pool! It was so hot outside!
Things with me n marc were nothing special at this point. Then we got outta the pool and sat round having a few drinks and taking some photos. I love being a camera whore with my BFF’s haha. Then once tonz aunty had gone to bed we decided to go for a wander in the kiwifruit orchard and have a smoke. That’s about where things got different with me n marc…hes the worst person for giving off mixed messages. Like we came back to the house and we were all pretty wasted and I went to sit outside by myself and he came out and sat right next to me. Like pretty close. And then the others came out and I could just see what they were thinking. We were all talking etc and me n marc were flirting something chronic and it continued that way the whole night. But nothing happened. Its so frustrating cause in the morning I walked in on him n tonz tryna have a talk haha. He was like following me around when we were shopping as well.
But then I started thinking and ive kinda decided that im going to forget bout marc and only see him as a friend. I know that I sound like im really up down with all this stuff but I gotta put these barriers up cause I don’t wanna get hurt and I can see that comin. So im going to try and move on even tho I probably wont haha. I needa get out there and get some action happening haha. I have a bbq at marcs in a couple of weeks so that should be quite interesting! This blog rally has no point other than me getting it all out there haha I feel as if im just rambling!
Woop woop my trip away is only 27 days away! Hopefully I come back from that with lotsa good stories cause im hoping it is one 6 night party lol so should be great. Im a bit worried bout going away with nicola tho cause shes just so funny sometimes and like I don’t want us to be fighting while we are down there and end up coming back hating each other. She told carl the other day that she might be moving out…but she hasn’t told me yet so I wonder when that will be happeneing!!! Anyways my rambling is over! Im going back to work haha.
Monday, November 24, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
Young, Free n Single!!
Ok so it’s Tuesday and im back at work after my fabulous long weekend! Ugh sigh! I hade the best time this weekend! me n my girls headed down to a town about 3 hours away after work on Friday and it was like just what I needed. We left the boys at home at about 5 and took our time leaving the city haha we didn’t even end up getting out until about 7 o’clock and we arrived at about 10, got some dinner and went to our house we were staying at. Nic went too bed when we got there but that was all good. Me, G n Tonz had a few drinks and played some singstar! It was awesome!
The next day we got up fairly early and headed off to another town a few minutes away and did what we girls do best! Some serious shopping. The funniest part about all of it was that I actually was the one to keep shopping after everyone else gave up! And I hate shopping. I guess im sort of like a boy in many ways cause I just cant be bothered wasting sooo much time shopping whereas all my girls can spend hours doing it! But all in all it was a good day! I bought a new hoody that was way cheap and some cute denim shorts and heaps of new knickers! I spent way more than I should of but it was worth it! We went out for dinner after a glass of wine by our fabulous pool and spent a good couple of hours at the restaurant eating and having some serious talking time.
I was watching this show on Thursday night and this lady lost her husband. By the end of the show I was in tears and it was just like why should I love someone when this could happen? I suppose I should be glad I am the way I am. I get on better with boys because im not one too show my feelings and im pretty tough. I mean don’t get me wrong I love to be spoiled and too love but im not the girl to go to when you want someone to cry etc. have you ever thought about what it would be like to lose those close to you? That’s seriously all I could think of it was so stupid.
After the restaurant we went home n hade a smoke which was sooo funny, one of my girls is pretty innocent and has never smoked before so watching her was probably the highlight of my night. She couldn’t even walk properly! Good times!!! We woke up in the morning to having no money and shitty as weather so we headed back home and invited my new interest and his boys round for a few drinks.
Me n M spent most of Sunday night cuddled up on the couch n playfighting which was soo much fun. Then he ended up sleeping in my bed cause we didn’t have enough couches for all of them too crash on. We had a few snuggles before going to sleep at about 7am! Sooo tired yesterday! We were according to my flat mate def giving off the vibe of something more than friends and I was feeling the vibe too.. So I decided I was gonna tell him that I liked him. I played soccer and after getting shit from my best guy mate I decided to give him a text. We were talking for awhile until I told him I had something I needed to say to him. I text him n said that I liked him but I didn’t want to if the thought wasn’t there. The response I got wasn’t exactly what I was hoping for. He said that he didn’t know what he was feeling and that he had a lot of stuff going on. So not the thing I needed to here. Im thinking that’s another guy that bites the dust.
I mean what am I supposed to do? sit around n wait while he decides if he wants me or not. Haha I guess this blog is helping me cause I only came to that conclusion as I was writing this! So it looks like its back to the drawing board for me! I’m young free and single officially once again! Why should I be the one to sit here waiting! I’m turning my feelings off!
The next day we got up fairly early and headed off to another town a few minutes away and did what we girls do best! Some serious shopping. The funniest part about all of it was that I actually was the one to keep shopping after everyone else gave up! And I hate shopping. I guess im sort of like a boy in many ways cause I just cant be bothered wasting sooo much time shopping whereas all my girls can spend hours doing it! But all in all it was a good day! I bought a new hoody that was way cheap and some cute denim shorts and heaps of new knickers! I spent way more than I should of but it was worth it! We went out for dinner after a glass of wine by our fabulous pool and spent a good couple of hours at the restaurant eating and having some serious talking time.
I was watching this show on Thursday night and this lady lost her husband. By the end of the show I was in tears and it was just like why should I love someone when this could happen? I suppose I should be glad I am the way I am. I get on better with boys because im not one too show my feelings and im pretty tough. I mean don’t get me wrong I love to be spoiled and too love but im not the girl to go to when you want someone to cry etc. have you ever thought about what it would be like to lose those close to you? That’s seriously all I could think of it was so stupid.
After the restaurant we went home n hade a smoke which was sooo funny, one of my girls is pretty innocent and has never smoked before so watching her was probably the highlight of my night. She couldn’t even walk properly! Good times!!! We woke up in the morning to having no money and shitty as weather so we headed back home and invited my new interest and his boys round for a few drinks.
Me n M spent most of Sunday night cuddled up on the couch n playfighting which was soo much fun. Then he ended up sleeping in my bed cause we didn’t have enough couches for all of them too crash on. We had a few snuggles before going to sleep at about 7am! Sooo tired yesterday! We were according to my flat mate def giving off the vibe of something more than friends and I was feeling the vibe too.. So I decided I was gonna tell him that I liked him. I played soccer and after getting shit from my best guy mate I decided to give him a text. We were talking for awhile until I told him I had something I needed to say to him. I text him n said that I liked him but I didn’t want to if the thought wasn’t there. The response I got wasn’t exactly what I was hoping for. He said that he didn’t know what he was feeling and that he had a lot of stuff going on. So not the thing I needed to here. Im thinking that’s another guy that bites the dust.
I mean what am I supposed to do? sit around n wait while he decides if he wants me or not. Haha I guess this blog is helping me cause I only came to that conclusion as I was writing this! So it looks like its back to the drawing board for me! I’m young free and single officially once again! Why should I be the one to sit here waiting! I’m turning my feelings off!
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
HMMM
ok so im sitting here at work thinking bout this guy i recently re met again. the one i went to prmary school with. things have been quite weird in the way that he seems to like being the only one to make contact or flirt or whateva.
so last night i had quite and early night, cause my flatmates were all pissing me off something chronic! But that’s gonna be saved for later. Then for god knows what reason I woke up at like 3.30 this morning to a text from M(who musta been at the concert)
‘ jus ncase I die slipknot rox n you rock xx”
So im lying there thinking what the hell cause I didn’t know there was a concert haha and I text him back this morning just saying so are you alive…no response 5 hours later. I don’t need constant attention but just a reply would have been nice ya know.
He just seems like this awesome guy. Hes cute hes tall hes smart he plays all the sports I love and hes on his way too some serious qualifications. Am I overreacting or expecting too much? I know I need to learn patience but that’s something ive never really possessed haha. I blame my mum for that!
Ugh last night I was not in a good mood. I was just laxing at home and it was my turn too cook so I made this yum as dinner! Smashed postatoes, deviled sausages and broccoli and cheese and the night was going great, until like 8 oclock and I just got grumpy. I didn’t wanna talk to anyone and all I wanted to do was sit there. I don’t think im that great at living with 4 other people.
It doesn’t help that one of my flatmate-shane- and me used to have this sorta thing like a year ago. It didn’t work out and now since we live together im starting to think this guy is in love with me. Like seriously hes such a dick to me at times and the rest of the time he alternates between sleazy comments and just being way too nice. I want this shit too stop but I just don’t know how to tell him that hes mc sleazy extrodinare… like hes a good friend but some of the stuff he says too me…ugh I shudder thinking bout it now…
Yay im also in super excited mode at the mo cause Im going away with my three best friends on a road trip tomorrow! Im sure im gonna have lots too right about tomorrow cause man 4 girls spending 4 days together…its never gonna end well :P
Time for me too get back too work!
so last night i had quite and early night, cause my flatmates were all pissing me off something chronic! But that’s gonna be saved for later. Then for god knows what reason I woke up at like 3.30 this morning to a text from M(who musta been at the concert)
‘ jus ncase I die slipknot rox n you rock xx”
So im lying there thinking what the hell cause I didn’t know there was a concert haha and I text him back this morning just saying so are you alive…no response 5 hours later. I don’t need constant attention but just a reply would have been nice ya know.
He just seems like this awesome guy. Hes cute hes tall hes smart he plays all the sports I love and hes on his way too some serious qualifications. Am I overreacting or expecting too much? I know I need to learn patience but that’s something ive never really possessed haha. I blame my mum for that!
Ugh last night I was not in a good mood. I was just laxing at home and it was my turn too cook so I made this yum as dinner! Smashed postatoes, deviled sausages and broccoli and cheese and the night was going great, until like 8 oclock and I just got grumpy. I didn’t wanna talk to anyone and all I wanted to do was sit there. I don’t think im that great at living with 4 other people.
It doesn’t help that one of my flatmate-shane- and me used to have this sorta thing like a year ago. It didn’t work out and now since we live together im starting to think this guy is in love with me. Like seriously hes such a dick to me at times and the rest of the time he alternates between sleazy comments and just being way too nice. I want this shit too stop but I just don’t know how to tell him that hes mc sleazy extrodinare… like hes a good friend but some of the stuff he says too me…ugh I shudder thinking bout it now…
Yay im also in super excited mode at the mo cause Im going away with my three best friends on a road trip tomorrow! Im sure im gonna have lots too right about tomorrow cause man 4 girls spending 4 days together…its never gonna end well :P
Time for me too get back too work!
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