So I have a job interview after work at the same massive company that Carlos works for. I didn’t even know that’s where I was applying to lol I was just going thru an agency and she told me I passed the phone interview part-didn’t even know that was going on- and that it was for ___ the company Carlos and another friend of ours Nicole works at. Its such an awesome opportunity for me if I get this! Its like more money etc so im trying to send out positive vibes etc lol and just believing I will get this! I have an interview at 4 today so im leaving early today! Yays so exciting!
Btw Doug really wont leave me alone…why cant he want a relationship?
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Up in smoke!
My weekend was my first sober weekend that ive had in awhile! It was pretty good tho! We went to the mall on Friday after work and got some dinner and went to the cd/dvd store and all walked away with something new lol. I bought my 3rd album from incubus who is my favorite ever and was given the fourth by Shane! Yay! I was so happy lol. Gen bought herself a cod and a movie and nick bought “American history X”. Definitely a movie worth watching! We went to the supermarket, bought some munchies and met the boys at home to watch the movie. It was quite interesting to watch the movie with the fact that all my friends are white lol. Me n Nicola nearly had a drama over it. It really pissed me off that she found the rape in the shower scene more disturbing then the racial hate killing scene…I actually couldn’t believe it. It really makes you think tho. In NZ I think we are so lucky to have the diversity and acceptance that we do have!
Me Tonz n nic went out for lunch on Saturday while gen n Carlos went on a date! So cute! Had the yummiest lunch! Then we came home and had a smoke! Haha was so funny. I love it when nic gets wasted. She started speaking to Shane in this English accent for some reason lol. It was bad at one point tho because our neighbor looked out her window and Tonz just pointed and laughed lo. Shane came outside with a massive bud for us “to enjoy your day ladies” so we went inside to watch a movie…Forest Gump! Perfect movie to watch when you’ve had a smoke! It took us like and hour to get the movie going tho cause we couldn’t work out the DVD player lol. Good times! In the end we decided to have another smoke before watching it, then ordered pizza and watched! Was an awesome way to spend the afternoon! We all had nap times and then did a bit of wake and bake and waited for the others to get home so we could go play black light mini golf. The six of us met hads up there and played. Probably one of the funniest games ive ever played. Poor hads was the only straight one lol.. Nic n hads took Tonz home after the game and me Shane and Carlos had another smoke and just sat outside pissing ourselves. Carl when hes stoned is so crazy like you actually just wanna roll on the floor laughing! I wish I had of been taping that shit lol! Once nic n hads got back we took hads outside for a smoke and then gen n Carl went to bed. Me nic Shane and hads started watching stepbrothers but we all fell asleep lol.. I woke up at like 1.30 and hads was on the floor! Shane had gone to bed and I went to bed too! Apparently nic and hads stayed there till out 6 that morning.
I went to my aunties baby shower yesterday! Only 4 more weeks till my cousin is born. I’m so excited! It’s the first grandchild on that side of the family since my sister was born. I think she’s finding it hard that she’s not gonna be the baby of the family anymore lol. Oh well I just cant wait to see and meet the baby! Her name will be ruby! She will be such a princess if she’s anything like my aunty haha. I went to bed so early last night! Me n Shane had a smoke at like 7.30 it was so buzzy! Ive never smoked just with him and being in a house with three other straight people! Not the one mate! Not the one!
On the note of my sister.. Im a little bit worried bout how she’s going to handle my 21st. its in 19 days! Yay! Everytime me n mum talk about it and try to make plans she trys to turn the conversation onto something else or if I bring up my relatives from my biological fathers side she just shuts down completely. There are three of my aunties on my bio dads side coming to my 21dt and I don’t want her to feel funny! Any advice?
Me Tonz n nic went out for lunch on Saturday while gen n Carlos went on a date! So cute! Had the yummiest lunch! Then we came home and had a smoke! Haha was so funny. I love it when nic gets wasted. She started speaking to Shane in this English accent for some reason lol. It was bad at one point tho because our neighbor looked out her window and Tonz just pointed and laughed lo. Shane came outside with a massive bud for us “to enjoy your day ladies” so we went inside to watch a movie…Forest Gump! Perfect movie to watch when you’ve had a smoke! It took us like and hour to get the movie going tho cause we couldn’t work out the DVD player lol. Good times! In the end we decided to have another smoke before watching it, then ordered pizza and watched! Was an awesome way to spend the afternoon! We all had nap times and then did a bit of wake and bake and waited for the others to get home so we could go play black light mini golf. The six of us met hads up there and played. Probably one of the funniest games ive ever played. Poor hads was the only straight one lol.. Nic n hads took Tonz home after the game and me Shane and Carlos had another smoke and just sat outside pissing ourselves. Carl when hes stoned is so crazy like you actually just wanna roll on the floor laughing! I wish I had of been taping that shit lol! Once nic n hads got back we took hads outside for a smoke and then gen n Carl went to bed. Me nic Shane and hads started watching stepbrothers but we all fell asleep lol.. I woke up at like 1.30 and hads was on the floor! Shane had gone to bed and I went to bed too! Apparently nic and hads stayed there till out 6 that morning.
I went to my aunties baby shower yesterday! Only 4 more weeks till my cousin is born. I’m so excited! It’s the first grandchild on that side of the family since my sister was born. I think she’s finding it hard that she’s not gonna be the baby of the family anymore lol. Oh well I just cant wait to see and meet the baby! Her name will be ruby! She will be such a princess if she’s anything like my aunty haha. I went to bed so early last night! Me n Shane had a smoke at like 7.30 it was so buzzy! Ive never smoked just with him and being in a house with three other straight people! Not the one mate! Not the one!
On the note of my sister.. Im a little bit worried bout how she’s going to handle my 21st. its in 19 days! Yay! Everytime me n mum talk about it and try to make plans she trys to turn the conversation onto something else or if I bring up my relatives from my biological fathers side she just shuts down completely. There are three of my aunties on my bio dads side coming to my 21dt and I don’t want her to feel funny! Any advice?
Thursday, February 19, 2009
A brush with the law...
Today I feel old. All my friends are now officially in relationships except Tonz. And or having babies. I know New Zealand has one of the highest teen pregnancy rates in the world and stuff. But come on man why do you all have to be that way! God doug is sounding more and more appealing as the days go by!
Lol at like 6 this morning I got a text from nicola tellen me she had been pulled over for the first time in her like by a cop. The conversation went like this…
Nicola: omg I just got pulld ova
Me: realy? Wat 4? U al gd?
Nicola: it was so stupid. It ws a cop on a bike. He ws only going lyk 30kms n hour down a hill n he pulld me ova for tailgating.
Me: did he give you a ticket lmao.
Nicola: no just a lecture. Wat a dik!
Lol I just had to mention that cause omg I lol’d. he had every reason to pull her over lol and she cant see why.
My weekend is getting increasingly close and I have…
Hold the phone!
NO PLANS!!!!!!!!
I cant believe it. I never have no plans unless im dying of illness lol. But oh well im sure ill find something to do. I wanna see “hes not that into you” or “marley and me” or “bride wars”. Maybe ill take the plunge and go to my frst movie alone ever. But then I suppose Friday may not quite be the day that I wanna do that aye. Cause there would probably would be a fair few loved up couples. Hmmmm…I shall ponder this whilei continue to pretend to work!
Lol at like 6 this morning I got a text from nicola tellen me she had been pulled over for the first time in her like by a cop. The conversation went like this…
Nicola: omg I just got pulld ova
Me: realy? Wat 4? U al gd?
Nicola: it was so stupid. It ws a cop on a bike. He ws only going lyk 30kms n hour down a hill n he pulld me ova for tailgating.
Me: did he give you a ticket lmao.
Nicola: no just a lecture. Wat a dik!
Lol I just had to mention that cause omg I lol’d. he had every reason to pull her over lol and she cant see why.
My weekend is getting increasingly close and I have…
Hold the phone!
NO PLANS!!!!!!!!
I cant believe it. I never have no plans unless im dying of illness lol. But oh well im sure ill find something to do. I wanna see “hes not that into you” or “marley and me” or “bride wars”. Maybe ill take the plunge and go to my frst movie alone ever. But then I suppose Friday may not quite be the day that I wanna do that aye. Cause there would probably would be a fair few loved up couples. Hmmmm…I shall ponder this whilei continue to pretend to work!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
This years love...
Ok so I recently bought the David Gray CD “white ladder”. Probably not the best idea now im in the cold light of day. One of my all time favorite, can listen to over and over, never get sick of songs is his onne called “this years love”.
I freaking love that song so much! I wanna marry him just for that song. But it also holds memories for me. I sent the lyrics of the song, which im gonna print below to my ex. The ex. When we were planning to get back together for the second time after the final break up I needed to show him how I felt and what I expected from our reunion. So I sent him the email etc. in the end it didn’t work out so meh. As im typing this im like hmmm maybe it is a good thing…its making me think about when that guy comes along..the one I will be with what I want from him. I don’t want some guy wo will just be casual and wont show his feelings. I want that magical connection. And I wanna be wooed! You know what I mean? Like someone who wants me enough that he will buy me flowers and will put up with my friends and our dramatics. And hold my hand and stuff. One day I will get that but for now I really am happy. Jealous slightly of nics new found love with hads but still happy lol.
Doug keeps texting me n stuff. I logged on to facebook last night and the chat window popped up with a message from him saying “hows my sexy girl”. Tho he only wants me for sex its nice to get these compliments. He says nice stuff to me all the time. I guess im confused. I don’t know if I am attracted to him and I worry that if we did start up a friends with benefits that I would develop feelings for him..im prone to do that and its already weird enough with me having vaguely dated one of his friends…hmmm I don’t know what to do. we ight be hanging out this weekend if anythings on otherwise who knows!
Here are the lyrics as promised!
This years love had better last
Heaven knows its high time
Ive been waiting on my own, too long,
When you hold me like you do
It feels so right, oh now
Start to forget how my heart gets torn
When the hurts get thrown
Feelin like i cant go on
Turning circles time again
Cut like a knife, oh now
If you love me got to know for sure
Cuz it takes something more this time
Then sweet, sweet lies, oh now
Before I open up my arms and fall losing all control
Every dream inside my soul
When you kiss me on the midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singin aint this life so sweet?
This years love had better last
This years love had better last
Cuz whose to worry if our hearts get torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Don’t you notice life goes on
Wont you kiss me on that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singin aint this life so sweet
This years love is here to last
This years love is here to last
This years love is here to last
This years love is here to last
I freaking love that song so much! I wanna marry him just for that song. But it also holds memories for me. I sent the lyrics of the song, which im gonna print below to my ex. The ex. When we were planning to get back together for the second time after the final break up I needed to show him how I felt and what I expected from our reunion. So I sent him the email etc. in the end it didn’t work out so meh. As im typing this im like hmmm maybe it is a good thing…its making me think about when that guy comes along..the one I will be with what I want from him. I don’t want some guy wo will just be casual and wont show his feelings. I want that magical connection. And I wanna be wooed! You know what I mean? Like someone who wants me enough that he will buy me flowers and will put up with my friends and our dramatics. And hold my hand and stuff. One day I will get that but for now I really am happy. Jealous slightly of nics new found love with hads but still happy lol.
Doug keeps texting me n stuff. I logged on to facebook last night and the chat window popped up with a message from him saying “hows my sexy girl”. Tho he only wants me for sex its nice to get these compliments. He says nice stuff to me all the time. I guess im confused. I don’t know if I am attracted to him and I worry that if we did start up a friends with benefits that I would develop feelings for him..im prone to do that and its already weird enough with me having vaguely dated one of his friends…hmmm I don’t know what to do. we ight be hanging out this weekend if anythings on otherwise who knows!
Here are the lyrics as promised!
This years love had better last
Heaven knows its high time
Ive been waiting on my own, too long,
When you hold me like you do
It feels so right, oh now
Start to forget how my heart gets torn
When the hurts get thrown
Feelin like i cant go on
Turning circles time again
Cut like a knife, oh now
If you love me got to know for sure
Cuz it takes something more this time
Then sweet, sweet lies, oh now
Before I open up my arms and fall losing all control
Every dream inside my soul
When you kiss me on the midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singin aint this life so sweet?
This years love had better last
This years love had better last
Cuz whose to worry if our hearts get torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Don’t you notice life goes on
Wont you kiss me on that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singin aint this life so sweet
This years love is here to last
This years love is here to last
This years love is here to last
This years love is here to last
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Boredom at work is sucky!
Out of complete boredom I decided to post this and see if anyone else wants to post it cause there aint much happening in the blogger world at the moment!
TEN FIRSTS
1. First Best Friends: Jos n Luke
2. First Pet: Sheeba!
3. First Piercing: Ears
4. First Crush: Sean Wiggum
5. First CD: Britney Spears!
6. First Car: Toyota Corona Wagon! It was oh so sexual haha!
7. First Love: Sharn
8. First Pet: Sheeba
9. First alcoholic drink: Beer
10. First thing you remember in your life: Breaking my finger in the gate between mine n likes houses when I was like three!
TEN NOWS
1. Best Guy Friend: Carlos
2. Best Girl Friend: Gen/Tonz/Nic
3. Best Friend Overseas: I don’t really have anyone I know living overseas so im gonna go with all my blogging buddies lol.
4. Best Hobbie: umm drinking lol nah I don’t have hobbies!
5. Best vacation spot: SOUTH ISLAND!
6. Best city spot: my hometown!
7. School/College: HHS
8. What are you doing now: Typing this and wanting to go and get lunch! Im so hungry!
9. Favourite song: Kings of Leon- Cold Desert!
10.Who are you fucking now? Perhaps a certain someone soon!
Nine Lasts
1. Last Vehicle Ride: To work this morning!
2. Last Movie Seen: Thelma and louse
! Loved it!3. Last Phone Call: Some customer!
4. Last CD Played: my flats personalized cd called “ makes you wanna”
5. Last Bubble Bath: January the 17th! The only reason I know this is cause it was gens bday lol 6. Last Time You Cried: last weekend
7. Last Thing You ate: Fries with my fave tomato sauce!
8. Last Thing You Sat On: My office chair!
9. Last Time You Hugged Your Mum: last night! Yays for party planning!
EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
1. Have you ever dated one of your best friends: yeah me n sharn were the closest of friends then…we all know the story!
2. Have you ever been arrested: Yip I got DUI when I was 18
3. Have you ever skinny dipped: haha yeah we wnet skinny dipping to ring in the new year of 2006!
4. Have you ever been on TV: yip on a couple of local programmes and I was on tv last month in the crowd shot at a cricket game!
5. Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: nah not really I always look back n laugh!
6. Have you ever had a sex dream about someone you knew: yeah most recently was about ewww marc lol
7. Have you ever punched a wall? Ouch yip when I was like 13 and it was cool to do that!
8. Have you ever played The Sims? Yeah (((YAWN)))
SEVEN THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE (in no particular order)
1. Travel the world
2.Love
3. Get rich
4. Have sex in a church (sorry to those who will be offended by that!)
5. Make a cake
6. Laugh more
7. Be me
SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY IN NO ORDER
1. Got gas for my car!
2. Ate yummy fries!
3. chatted to my work buddies!
4. about to send some 21st invites!
5. had a shower
6. realized how boring my day is!
FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
1. Family
2.Friends
3. Travelling
4. Music
5. Life
FOUR PEOPLE WHO YOU CAN TELL ANYTHING TO?
1.Gen
2. Carlos
3. Tonz
4. Nic
THREE CHOICES
1. Life or death: life
2. Love or sex: Love
3. Sony or X box: Sony
TWO THINGS YOU'RE WEARING
1. My awesome havianas!
2. Rocking my volcom shirt!
ONE THING YOU REGRETthe abortion in some aspects.
Questionzzz1. Pierce your tongue or nose? Nose
2. Be serious or be funny? Funny
3. Drink whole or skim milk? Skim
4. Die in a fire or drown? Drown
5. Spend time with your parents or enemies? Parents
D O . Y O U . P R E F E R. .1. Flowers or candy? Flowers
2. Grey or black? Black
3. Color or Black and white photos? Black and white
4. Lust or love? Love
5. Sunrise or sunset? Sunrise
6. M&Ms or Skittles? Skittles!
7. Staying up late or waking up early? Staying up late
A N S W E R . T R U T H F U L L Y !!
1. Do you like anyone? Im starting to wonder about a certain someone!
2. Do they know it? I know they like me lol
3. Have you ever loved someone that hurt you? Of course
D O . Y O U . P R E F E R.
.1. Sun or moon? Sun
2. Winter or Autumn? Autumn
3. Left or right? Left
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends? Best Friends
5. Sunny or rainy? Sunny
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? Vanilla! Opposites attract lol
A B O U T . Y O U!
1. What time is it? 1.08pm
2. First and middle Name? Zara L
3. Nickname(s)?Zarz/ Tokes/ Hooky
4. What is your birthday? The ides of March
5. What do you want? To live, laugh, love
6. Where do you want to live? South Island!
7. How many kids do you want? who knows
8. You want to get married? Fiji Baby!
U N I Q U E !
1. Nervous habit: This weird finger thing
2. Are you double jointed? Nope
3. Can you roll your tongue? Yip
4. Can you raise one eyebrow? Npe
5. Can you cross your eyes?: Nope lol
TEN FIRSTS
1. First Best Friends: Jos n Luke
2. First Pet: Sheeba!
3. First Piercing: Ears
4. First Crush: Sean Wiggum
5. First CD: Britney Spears!
6. First Car: Toyota Corona Wagon! It was oh so sexual haha!
7. First Love: Sharn
8. First Pet: Sheeba
9. First alcoholic drink: Beer
10. First thing you remember in your life: Breaking my finger in the gate between mine n likes houses when I was like three!
TEN NOWS
1. Best Guy Friend: Carlos
2. Best Girl Friend: Gen/Tonz/Nic
3. Best Friend Overseas: I don’t really have anyone I know living overseas so im gonna go with all my blogging buddies lol.
4. Best Hobbie: umm drinking lol nah I don’t have hobbies!
5. Best vacation spot: SOUTH ISLAND!
6. Best city spot: my hometown!
7. School/College: HHS
8. What are you doing now: Typing this and wanting to go and get lunch! Im so hungry!
9. Favourite song: Kings of Leon- Cold Desert!
10.Who are you fucking now? Perhaps a certain someone soon!
Nine Lasts
1. Last Vehicle Ride: To work this morning!
2. Last Movie Seen: Thelma and louse
! Loved it!3. Last Phone Call: Some customer!
4. Last CD Played: my flats personalized cd called “ makes you wanna”
5. Last Bubble Bath: January the 17th! The only reason I know this is cause it was gens bday lol 6. Last Time You Cried: last weekend
7. Last Thing You ate: Fries with my fave tomato sauce!
8. Last Thing You Sat On: My office chair!
9. Last Time You Hugged Your Mum: last night! Yays for party planning!
EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
1. Have you ever dated one of your best friends: yeah me n sharn were the closest of friends then…we all know the story!
2. Have you ever been arrested: Yip I got DUI when I was 18
3. Have you ever skinny dipped: haha yeah we wnet skinny dipping to ring in the new year of 2006!
4. Have you ever been on TV: yip on a couple of local programmes and I was on tv last month in the crowd shot at a cricket game!
5. Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: nah not really I always look back n laugh!
6. Have you ever had a sex dream about someone you knew: yeah most recently was about ewww marc lol
7. Have you ever punched a wall? Ouch yip when I was like 13 and it was cool to do that!
8. Have you ever played The Sims? Yeah (((YAWN)))
SEVEN THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE (in no particular order)
1. Travel the world
2.Love
3. Get rich
4. Have sex in a church (sorry to those who will be offended by that!)
5. Make a cake
6. Laugh more
7. Be me
SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY IN NO ORDER
1. Got gas for my car!
2. Ate yummy fries!
3. chatted to my work buddies!
4. about to send some 21st invites!
5. had a shower
6. realized how boring my day is!
FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
1. Family
2.Friends
3. Travelling
4. Music
5. Life
FOUR PEOPLE WHO YOU CAN TELL ANYTHING TO?
1.Gen
2. Carlos
3. Tonz
4. Nic
THREE CHOICES
1. Life or death: life
2. Love or sex: Love
3. Sony or X box: Sony
TWO THINGS YOU'RE WEARING
1. My awesome havianas!
2. Rocking my volcom shirt!
ONE THING YOU REGRETthe abortion in some aspects.
Questionzzz1. Pierce your tongue or nose? Nose
2. Be serious or be funny? Funny
3. Drink whole or skim milk? Skim
4. Die in a fire or drown? Drown
5. Spend time with your parents or enemies? Parents
D O . Y O U . P R E F E R. .1. Flowers or candy? Flowers
2. Grey or black? Black
3. Color or Black and white photos? Black and white
4. Lust or love? Love
5. Sunrise or sunset? Sunrise
6. M&Ms or Skittles? Skittles!
7. Staying up late or waking up early? Staying up late
A N S W E R . T R U T H F U L L Y !!
1. Do you like anyone? Im starting to wonder about a certain someone!
2. Do they know it? I know they like me lol
3. Have you ever loved someone that hurt you? Of course
D O . Y O U . P R E F E R.
.1. Sun or moon? Sun
2. Winter or Autumn? Autumn
3. Left or right? Left
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends? Best Friends
5. Sunny or rainy? Sunny
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? Vanilla! Opposites attract lol
A B O U T . Y O U!
1. What time is it? 1.08pm
2. First and middle Name? Zara L
3. Nickname(s)?Zarz/ Tokes/ Hooky
4. What is your birthday? The ides of March
5. What do you want? To live, laugh, love
6. Where do you want to live? South Island!
7. How many kids do you want? who knows
8. You want to get married? Fiji Baby!
U N I Q U E !
1. Nervous habit: This weird finger thing
2. Are you double jointed? Nope
3. Can you roll your tongue? Yip
4. Can you raise one eyebrow? Npe
5. Can you cross your eyes?: Nope lol
Monday, February 16, 2009
Rambling makes no sense post lol
Okay so im gonna tell you guys about doug…hes new to my blog lol ive never really talked about him before! But anyway before I get distracted, hes marcs friend and hes been tryning to get iin my pants something chronic lately…I always resist him and avoid his questions or just say straight up no but now im starting to be like hmmm maybe I should just go for it…and I have to admit I get a little tingle from his texts lol.
The girls and assorted peeps have been giving me shit all weekend for it. We went to pick nic up from her work dinner on Friday night and gen n tonz had already been giving me shit when I started getting texts from all the boys as well…gen n tonz have the song which they passed on- “dougs world, sexy time, excellent, woo woo”- assholes lol. I got so many texts about it the on Friday. We wanted to go swimming on Friday night but by the time wed messed around and gotten coffee etc as we do we were too late for the beach and there were other people there lol.
On Saturday a few people came round and we had laxed drinks playing the gravy train and stuff. I had intended to be alcohol free and just lax cause I was so broke but after I went to bed at like 8.30 to watch desperate housewives re runs, nic n shane came and got me up to take them to the booze shop and said they were gonna buy me some! So of course I ended up drinking…
I just stayed home on Sunday tho and watched Thelma and louise! Loves it! Ive never seen it before lol! Well this blog is pretty much just rambling nonsense but I will keep you updated on hat I decide to do about doug! Hes very sweet actually…he just text me to ask me how I am! Which is always nice to get asked! And carls mum is coming over from aussie tonight so yay we will have some fun times ahead!
The girls and assorted peeps have been giving me shit all weekend for it. We went to pick nic up from her work dinner on Friday night and gen n tonz had already been giving me shit when I started getting texts from all the boys as well…gen n tonz have the song which they passed on- “dougs world, sexy time, excellent, woo woo”- assholes lol. I got so many texts about it the on Friday. We wanted to go swimming on Friday night but by the time wed messed around and gotten coffee etc as we do we were too late for the beach and there were other people there lol.
On Saturday a few people came round and we had laxed drinks playing the gravy train and stuff. I had intended to be alcohol free and just lax cause I was so broke but after I went to bed at like 8.30 to watch desperate housewives re runs, nic n shane came and got me up to take them to the booze shop and said they were gonna buy me some! So of course I ended up drinking…
I just stayed home on Sunday tho and watched Thelma and louise! Loves it! Ive never seen it before lol! Well this blog is pretty much just rambling nonsense but I will keep you updated on hat I decide to do about doug! Hes very sweet actually…he just text me to ask me how I am! Which is always nice to get asked! And carls mum is coming over from aussie tonight so yay we will have some fun times ahead!
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Counting down!
well my flatmates and friends have just offered to pay for the hire of the club for my bday so i take back what i said! its such a nice and expensive present! i cant believe it! yays!
Thursday, February 12, 2009
3 posts in one day haha
So its 28 days till the big 21st birthday and counting…and all im getting from everyone is negativity. I wish id never agreed to have it at the house and could of afforded the club. They keep putting so many restrictions on it and obviously unlike gens bday im not going to get any help. It feels a bit weird to be decorating for your own party. Its gonna be such a mission to clean up by myself the next day as well. We cleaned up after gens for her arty while she slept all day. So should be interesting to see me when I wake up cleaning up my house on my actual bday. I feel like I cant invite anymore people to my bday and no ones said anything bout helping all they’ve said is what they want. I know I prob sound like a selfish barat or an obsessive person who over thinks but this is who I am and if youu don’t like it then hit the x in the corner. God im such a juvenile but I guess the fact that they’ve all been talking about it but don’t talk to me doesn’t help. I feel myself pulling further and further away from them all and tho I don’t want it to happen ican see how it will go. I have this habit of fleeing from my problems and that’s what I will do. ive been looking online at jobs overseas as a way of escaping. Would be pretty cool and you know what…I don’t think anyone would miss me…
Coming up! Vday update!
So my weekend plans are pretty non existent at this point but at the same time they are pretty full on! Tonight us girls are running the kitchen down at the soccer club and watching the boys play there final games of the soccer league then I will be picking nic up from town after her very late xmas dinner! Should be fun being at the club. It’s a sign of how things are changing tho cause I used to get a fourpack of drinks Friday, rock over to gen n carls house in go n watch the game with an assortment of people. It was always so much fun but after all the shit went down we kinda just stopped all that well I did anyway and ive only been to like 5 of the games! So gay haha. But oh well at least im at the final one tonight. ashley my mate from school who ive always had an on off relationship with just called me at work and told me to come hang out tonight. my hot boy crush from primary school is gonna be there minus his bitch of a gf lol. Should be fun! Not that I would try it on him but were just gonna watch dvds etc!
Tomorrow night being valentines day we are doing the whole anti valentines thing at home and just having a few drinks. Ive never really had a memorable valentines lol. Ive only ever had a worthwhile bf for 3 of them…
My first ever celebrated valentines was all bout my bf tryna cop a feel in the park! Oh so romantic and then him refusing to come hang out with my family and going to see his boys! Haha how awesome is that! No flowers no nothing!
My second valentines celebration was spent with my bf sharn. We had been together for nearly a year and I went hard out. Bought him this $50 book on surfing spots that he really wanted and like put it in this box filled with candy and stuff. I soent hours on it! He gave me a necklace that cost $14.00 cause he spent all his money on beer to drink with my dad! Lol then him and his mate took me n my mate to pizza hut of all places and tried to dine n dash! How sweet is that! I did get some freaking fantastic sex afterwards tho…but then again with him I was always satisfied!
My third and final valentines being hooked up we were long distance from each other so we talked for a couple of hours on the phone and it was nice…
Good old valentines o make a single girl think! Doesn’t matter me tho I like who I am! Omg last night my stupid light bulb went out while I was in bed so I had to go steal one from our lounge to change it so I could see in the morning. In Nz we are having the most massive heat wave! Its good but so gross at the moment. Like you wake up sweating and cant get to sleep at night. I was changing my lightbuld when I managed to smash the glass lampshade that goes round it so I had to be all he man like and go and get gens tool kit and carls flash light and change it all lol. Ooops what a wally! By the tome I was done with that I was covered in drips of sweat! And eww while I was in the kitchen shane came out in no pants lol! Not a pretty sight!
Its been so weird hanging with ashley again. Shes been a bitch majorly to me in the past and responsible for most of the rumprs spread about me but I just can never seem to turn my back on her..that and she has the most gowagus little three year old who I have spent so much time with. Ash took me in when I had no where to live and was always there for me… will just have to see how this time goes I guess!
Tomorrow night being valentines day we are doing the whole anti valentines thing at home and just having a few drinks. Ive never really had a memorable valentines lol. Ive only ever had a worthwhile bf for 3 of them…
My first ever celebrated valentines was all bout my bf tryna cop a feel in the park! Oh so romantic and then him refusing to come hang out with my family and going to see his boys! Haha how awesome is that! No flowers no nothing!
My second valentines celebration was spent with my bf sharn. We had been together for nearly a year and I went hard out. Bought him this $50 book on surfing spots that he really wanted and like put it in this box filled with candy and stuff. I soent hours on it! He gave me a necklace that cost $14.00 cause he spent all his money on beer to drink with my dad! Lol then him and his mate took me n my mate to pizza hut of all places and tried to dine n dash! How sweet is that! I did get some freaking fantastic sex afterwards tho…but then again with him I was always satisfied!
My third and final valentines being hooked up we were long distance from each other so we talked for a couple of hours on the phone and it was nice…
Good old valentines o make a single girl think! Doesn’t matter me tho I like who I am! Omg last night my stupid light bulb went out while I was in bed so I had to go steal one from our lounge to change it so I could see in the morning. In Nz we are having the most massive heat wave! Its good but so gross at the moment. Like you wake up sweating and cant get to sleep at night. I was changing my lightbuld when I managed to smash the glass lampshade that goes round it so I had to be all he man like and go and get gens tool kit and carls flash light and change it all lol. Ooops what a wally! By the tome I was done with that I was covered in drips of sweat! And eww while I was in the kitchen shane came out in no pants lol! Not a pretty sight!
Its been so weird hanging with ashley again. Shes been a bitch majorly to me in the past and responsible for most of the rumprs spread about me but I just can never seem to turn my back on her..that and she has the most gowagus little three year old who I have spent so much time with. Ash took me in when I had no where to live and was always there for me… will just have to see how this time goes I guess!
More song lyrics!
IT'S THE BIGGEST STORMIN YEARS THEY SAY
COULDN'T TAKE A PLANE
SO I HOPPED A TRAIN
WELL MY LIFE WILL STAYIN A STORMY WINTERS DAY
SO I'LL COME BACK TO YOU SOMEDAY
AS THE STATES ROLL BY
THE SUN IS SO CLEAR
I'M EVERYWHERE BUT NEVER RIGHT HERE
IT'S ALWAYS THE SAME
BUT CONSTANT CHANGE
BUT I'LL COME BACK TO YOU
SOMEDAY
SO CLOSE
SO FAR
SO LONG, GIRLTHE WORLD IS LEADING ME AWAY
I'LL DRIVE ALL NIGHT
JUST TO SEE YOUR FACE
THE WAY YOU TOUCH
TO THE WAY YOU TASTE
EVEN IF ONLY FOR A DAY
SO I'LL COME BACK TO YOU SOMEDAY
I SPEAK THE TRUTH
IT'S ALL I KNOW
AS YOUR TEARS FALL TO THE SNOW
AND WE BOTH KNOW
THAT TONIGHT I CAN'T STAY
BUT I'LL COME BACK TO YOU
SOMEDAY
SO CLOSE
SO FAR
SO LONG, GIRLTHE WORLD IS SPINING ME AWAY
SO CLOSE
SO FAR
SO LONG
THE WORLD IS SPINING ME AWAY
SO CLOSE SO FAR
SO LONGTHE WORLD IS SPINING ME AWAY
SPINING ME AWAY
Dancin' where the stars go blue
Dancin' where the evening fell
Dancin' in my wooden shoes
In a wedding gown
Dancin' out on 7th street
Dancin' through the underground
Dancin' little marionette
Are you happy now?
Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue
Laughing with your pretty mouth
Laughing with your broken eyes
Laughing with your lover's tongue
In a lullaby
Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue
The stars go blue, stars go blue
COULDN'T TAKE A PLANE
SO I HOPPED A TRAIN
WELL MY LIFE WILL STAYIN A STORMY WINTERS DAY
SO I'LL COME BACK TO YOU SOMEDAY
AS THE STATES ROLL BY
THE SUN IS SO CLEAR
I'M EVERYWHERE BUT NEVER RIGHT HERE
IT'S ALWAYS THE SAME
BUT CONSTANT CHANGE
BUT I'LL COME BACK TO YOU
SOMEDAY
SO CLOSE
SO FAR
SO LONG, GIRLTHE WORLD IS LEADING ME AWAY
I'LL DRIVE ALL NIGHT
JUST TO SEE YOUR FACE
THE WAY YOU TOUCH
TO THE WAY YOU TASTE
EVEN IF ONLY FOR A DAY
SO I'LL COME BACK TO YOU SOMEDAY
I SPEAK THE TRUTH
IT'S ALL I KNOW
AS YOUR TEARS FALL TO THE SNOW
AND WE BOTH KNOW
THAT TONIGHT I CAN'T STAY
BUT I'LL COME BACK TO YOU
SOMEDAY
SO CLOSE
SO FAR
SO LONG, GIRLTHE WORLD IS SPINING ME AWAY
SO CLOSE
SO FAR
SO LONG
THE WORLD IS SPINING ME AWAY
SO CLOSE SO FAR
SO LONGTHE WORLD IS SPINING ME AWAY
SPINING ME AWAY
Dancin' where the stars go blue
Dancin' where the evening fell
Dancin' in my wooden shoes
In a wedding gown
Dancin' out on 7th street
Dancin' through the underground
Dancin' little marionette
Are you happy now?
Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue
Laughing with your pretty mouth
Laughing with your broken eyes
Laughing with your lover's tongue
In a lullaby
Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue
The stars go blue, stars go blue
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Ideas please everyone!!
Ok guys I need some in out as to how ta find some happiness in my life at the mo! I needa jazz it up bigtime! All my blogs have been moaning ranting blah blahs for the last few posts! So if you guys have any ideas tell me please! If I wana get back in the game I needa be happy woth myself first of all! speacially the people that are following but dont say anything :-P!!!!
Monday, February 9, 2009
stupid balding little weasel males!
I am so freaking pissed right now! I went to soccer last night and doug was playing for us cause carl and dobby couldn’t make it. The game before us was running late so we ended up sitting back chatting. Im not sure who will remember but going back to like the beginning of December when all the stuff with me and marc was going on there was MAJOR tension going on in my house. we were all fighting and it was like me n gen against the others. It was horrible. Gen and carl were at the point of breaking up and me n nic were barely speaking. Me n carl have had major shit go down.
The reason we were fighting? Cause the boys and nic were convinced that marc had feelings for gen ETC…me gem m tonz defended this from day one. I mean come on I was the one who was seeing him blah blah. But he was always texting her back etc. I put it down to them being good friends. I mean they clicked instantly. Go I feel like such an idiot! Like I actually have no faith in males ofr anything now. Marc is such a lying little homewrecking whore! It turns out that yes at one point he did have feelings for gen and he was trying to get with her! I cant believe it. Like im so angry I don’t have words for it! He needs to stay the hell away from gen and carl cause they sure as hell dint need his shit!
I couldn’t sleep last night thinking about it. I don’t think doug realized that what he told me was such a big deal but it was. I feel so humiliated cause all along I thought he actually cared about me. god no wonder I get on better with his friends than I do with him!!!!!
On another note…marcs mate doug has been texting me non stop! And my mate ashley is setting me up with this guy called johnno lol. He sounds nice! Theres also that whole tyler thing. Hes so cute!
Grrr so mad! Am I over reacting or do I have a right to feel like this? I feel like my gut instinct let me down and that yeah I deserve to be in the dog box with carl cause I shoulda listened to one of my good friends over a lying, balding little weasel! This is why I don’t trust males! What would make a person do something like that? My god carl apologized to marc about shane saying stuff to him! If you look at the decemeber blogs you can see. Sorry im too gumby to know how ta post the links!
The reason we were fighting? Cause the boys and nic were convinced that marc had feelings for gen ETC…me gem m tonz defended this from day one. I mean come on I was the one who was seeing him blah blah. But he was always texting her back etc. I put it down to them being good friends. I mean they clicked instantly. Go I feel like such an idiot! Like I actually have no faith in males ofr anything now. Marc is such a lying little homewrecking whore! It turns out that yes at one point he did have feelings for gen and he was trying to get with her! I cant believe it. Like im so angry I don’t have words for it! He needs to stay the hell away from gen and carl cause they sure as hell dint need his shit!
I couldn’t sleep last night thinking about it. I don’t think doug realized that what he told me was such a big deal but it was. I feel so humiliated cause all along I thought he actually cared about me. god no wonder I get on better with his friends than I do with him!!!!!
On another note…marcs mate doug has been texting me non stop! And my mate ashley is setting me up with this guy called johnno lol. He sounds nice! Theres also that whole tyler thing. Hes so cute!
Grrr so mad! Am I over reacting or do I have a right to feel like this? I feel like my gut instinct let me down and that yeah I deserve to be in the dog box with carl cause I shoulda listened to one of my good friends over a lying, balding little weasel! This is why I don’t trust males! What would make a person do something like that? My god carl apologized to marc about shane saying stuff to him! If you look at the decemeber blogs you can see. Sorry im too gumby to know how ta post the links!
Photo post number 2!
Me n nic with our drunk faces on!
me n hads...samme again lol
hads shane nic n tonz outside our house!
hads and nic..it kinda looks like hes gonna take off with her lol
they just fell off the chairs at our house!
about to fall off the chairs!
i love this photo even if we look like booze hags!
shane and nic! this photo is classic!
This is the crew all dressed up for gens 21st! we always get ready at our house lol.
us again with bree also in the pic. we didnt want her in the pic but we didnt know how ta tell her lol.
me n my besty...shes dressed as betty boop lol
outside the club where the 21st was!this is the ex sharn! not the best pic but thought you guys might like to see! watch out for him in canada Steph! he goes over there most winters to snowboard lol. 
SO THER YA GO GUYS! ALL MY RECENT PICS LOL!
Sordid details :-P
Rules to Isabella's Naughty Meme of Firsts:
1. Please post these at the beginning of your meme.
2. Please include a link to Sex Talk For Men.
3. Please include as many sordid details in your answers as possible -- if you haven't got any, make them up!
4. Tag 3 people.
1. First French kiss?
My first kiss was with my first boyfriend in high school. I don’t know what I was thinking going out with him! It was so awkward lol and he had the same name as my sister! I was 12!
2. First boyfriend/girlfriend.
I was 12 and he had the same name as my sister. It was my first year in high school and my best mate set me up with him cause she was going out with his brother. I used to sneak to his house after school lol.
3. First type.
I used to go for the brown boys and had a thing for the little g-unit wannabes!
4. First time you had sex.
I was really young…14 in fact and it was horrible. It didn’t hurt cause although I didn’t realize at the time he had a small as penis lol.
5. First celebrity crush.
Jonathon taylor Thomas! I loved “home improvement” and I even named my fish after him haha
6. First sexual fantasy.
I have that whole fantasy of being tied up or being dominated!
7. First person you fell in love with.
my one and only love so far was my ex Sharn. I loved him after a month of being together and never once had to question it. He was an amazing guy and we used to say to each other that we should met when we were like 23-24 rather than 16. I will always love him cause he was my best friend. We went through so much but it was worth it all to have that experience!
8. First proper sex toy.
hahahaha I recently won this 8 piece vibrator set! I have ta say it doesn’t really do it for me aye but im looking forward to trying it out with a partner!
9. First porn video.
I don’t own porn but me n sharn had some good sex while watching porn at his mates when we were on holiday! Im talking hours of it lol.
10. First sexy lingerie item/sexy briefs owned.
umm would have to be these lacy panties that like laced up at the back! I loved them!
11. First time giving oral.
I was 15 and going but with a 21 year old who had way more experience than me! bur apparently im pretty good with my mouth lol good times!
12. First time getting oral.
it was sharn! I don’t really like recieveing aye and I don’t know why…ive never really enjoyed it I guess. We used to sit there and like investigate every inch of each other.
13. First one night stand.
umm it was some random whose name I don’t remember after my first time…once again I never knew what an actual sized dick felt like till I slept with the 21 year old lol. That hurt!
14. First dirty book/dirty mag read.
ummm the first book I read with really dirty shit in it was the horse whisperer. Looking back now that’s nothing haha.
1. http://0utsid3theb0x.blogspot.com/
2. http://lifeontheolist.blogspot.com/
3. http://ciollinscalling.blogspot.com/
im way to sucky to try and post the actual links lol sorry guys!
1. Please post these at the beginning of your meme.
2. Please include a link to Sex Talk For Men.
3. Please include as many sordid details in your answers as possible -- if you haven't got any, make them up!
4. Tag 3 people.
1. First French kiss?
My first kiss was with my first boyfriend in high school. I don’t know what I was thinking going out with him! It was so awkward lol and he had the same name as my sister! I was 12!
2. First boyfriend/girlfriend.
I was 12 and he had the same name as my sister. It was my first year in high school and my best mate set me up with him cause she was going out with his brother. I used to sneak to his house after school lol.
3. First type.
I used to go for the brown boys and had a thing for the little g-unit wannabes!
4. First time you had sex.
I was really young…14 in fact and it was horrible. It didn’t hurt cause although I didn’t realize at the time he had a small as penis lol.
5. First celebrity crush.
Jonathon taylor Thomas! I loved “home improvement” and I even named my fish after him haha
6. First sexual fantasy.
I have that whole fantasy of being tied up or being dominated!
7. First person you fell in love with.
my one and only love so far was my ex Sharn. I loved him after a month of being together and never once had to question it. He was an amazing guy and we used to say to each other that we should met when we were like 23-24 rather than 16. I will always love him cause he was my best friend. We went through so much but it was worth it all to have that experience!
8. First proper sex toy.
hahahaha I recently won this 8 piece vibrator set! I have ta say it doesn’t really do it for me aye but im looking forward to trying it out with a partner!
9. First porn video.
I don’t own porn but me n sharn had some good sex while watching porn at his mates when we were on holiday! Im talking hours of it lol.
10. First sexy lingerie item/sexy briefs owned.
umm would have to be these lacy panties that like laced up at the back! I loved them!
11. First time giving oral.
I was 15 and going but with a 21 year old who had way more experience than me! bur apparently im pretty good with my mouth lol good times!
12. First time getting oral.
it was sharn! I don’t really like recieveing aye and I don’t know why…ive never really enjoyed it I guess. We used to sit there and like investigate every inch of each other.
13. First one night stand.
umm it was some random whose name I don’t remember after my first time…once again I never knew what an actual sized dick felt like till I slept with the 21 year old lol. That hurt!
14. First dirty book/dirty mag read.
ummm the first book I read with really dirty shit in it was the horse whisperer. Looking back now that’s nothing haha.
1. http://0utsid3theb0x.blogspot.com/
2. http://lifeontheolist.blogspot.com/
3. http://ciollinscalling.blogspot.com/
im way to sucky to try and post the actual links lol sorry guys!
Sunday, February 8, 2009
The characters!
Ok so lately everyone seems to be doing an outline of the main people in their blogs so I though I would give you an uupdate and let ya know of who everyone is cause I know how confusing I can be lol.
Gen- my best friend from high school. Known each other 8 years now and still friends. Also living together which has its ups and downs!
Tonz- my other bff. We went to primary school and high school together but never really hung out until the end of high school and now I couldn’t be without her.
Nic/Nicola- we met just under a year ago and have been friends since. We prob have the most problems in our friendship but hey I guess everyone has someone like that. We live together.
Carlos- my best guy friend and gens boyfriend. They’ve been together almost three years so I guess that’s how long weve known each other. We also live together.
Shane- hmm me n him have a somewhat chequered history. We fight like cat n dog and he used to have major feelings for me. the last of my flatmates.
Marcy Marc- we went to primary school together and started hanging out bout 6 months ago. We tried dating but it didn’t really happen..now were just friends.
Hads/Hadley- one of marcs friends who we met through marc and is now dating nic! Awesome guy!
Tyler/the bodyguard- another of marcs friends that we now hang out with. Hes a little cutey but hes a virgin! Awesome guy tho!
Doug- hes fairly new on the scene and a very smooth talker. Hes been hittin on tonz since he met her and now me as well. Another of marcs friends that is ours now…
So there ya go..the main people in my life at this time!
Gen- my best friend from high school. Known each other 8 years now and still friends. Also living together which has its ups and downs!
Tonz- my other bff. We went to primary school and high school together but never really hung out until the end of high school and now I couldn’t be without her.
Nic/Nicola- we met just under a year ago and have been friends since. We prob have the most problems in our friendship but hey I guess everyone has someone like that. We live together.
Carlos- my best guy friend and gens boyfriend. They’ve been together almost three years so I guess that’s how long weve known each other. We also live together.
Shane- hmm me n him have a somewhat chequered history. We fight like cat n dog and he used to have major feelings for me. the last of my flatmates.
Marcy Marc- we went to primary school together and started hanging out bout 6 months ago. We tried dating but it didn’t really happen..now were just friends.
Hads/Hadley- one of marcs friends who we met through marc and is now dating nic! Awesome guy!
Tyler/the bodyguard- another of marcs friends that we now hang out with. Hes a little cutey but hes a virgin! Awesome guy tho!
Doug- hes fairly new on the scene and a very smooth talker. Hes been hittin on tonz since he met her and now me as well. Another of marcs friends that is ours now…
So there ya go..the main people in my life at this time!
Longest of long weekends!
Wow whatta weekend I have just had. We had a long weekend here in NZ to celebrate basically the beginning of our country merging with the English settlers that came here. Its to celebrate the treaty that was signed at the time and luckily for us it fell on a Friday this year so we had a long weekend.
On Thursday night I had my mum, dad, stepdad and sister over for dinner cause it was just me n shane home that night. We all had a few beers and a yummy bbq and it as fun hanging out. Then nicola came home n me n her started on the vodka, apple sours and lemonade combo. Mmm it is such a nice drink. Hads ended up coming round and we were all sitting round when marc text asking if we could pick him up. We decided minus shane just to go to his house and hang out. We ended up waking like three other people up and they all came over and joined us. Marc and the jew were tryna get me to hook up with doug one of their friends whose been texting me for awhile. Was def interesting. There was no way I was going there with doug he isn’t realy my type. And the fact hes also hit on tonz before is off putting as well lol. We ended up going home at about 4.30. was def a long night and I needed my sleep the next morning. Which I so didn’t get lol. I managed to drag nic out with me n mum to see my auntys new house that she just bought with her partner which was cool. Its an amazing house! we just hung out for the day in the sweltering heat then went home to rest and relax. We just ended up having a few drinks at home on Friday with me nic hads shane n tonz. It was a bit of a sad day for me cause it goes back to when I had my abortion. I was due on the 6th of feb so I always end up thinking bout it… and I was drinking gin which I fully cant drink anymore lol. So I stopped drinking and went to bed pretty early after nic seranded me to sleep lol
On Saturday it was all pretty much the same. Laxed during the day and then we went out for dinner that night and then went home and had some drinks. My morning yesterday did not start well tho! I woke up to shane smashing on my bedroom door telling me I needed to move my car. I told him where my keys were and next minute he had taken off in my car down the road! I was so freaking pissed! He doesn’t have a licsense and would have been over the alcohol limit and he didn’t ask me if he could borrow my car just took off. It made me so fucking mad and I still am now. He has yet to say sorry or anything and we havnt even spoken since then. Grr I was mad! That started my day off bad and it went from there. The inconsiderate fucks that I live with were going out last night to get everyone dinner but me! it mad me so mad and upset like hello I live here to! In the end I went n got my own dinner and took off to another friends place. It wasn’t even worth being there causeof how ive been feeling.
Lately I feel very left out etc at home and ive been crying etc everyday. I don’t know whats going on but it sucks. Its my 21st soon and I wanna be there with my best friends not the people formerly known as best friends y aknow. I needa get out of the place that im in mentally at the mo… grrr so annoyed with myself!
On Thursday night I had my mum, dad, stepdad and sister over for dinner cause it was just me n shane home that night. We all had a few beers and a yummy bbq and it as fun hanging out. Then nicola came home n me n her started on the vodka, apple sours and lemonade combo. Mmm it is such a nice drink. Hads ended up coming round and we were all sitting round when marc text asking if we could pick him up. We decided minus shane just to go to his house and hang out. We ended up waking like three other people up and they all came over and joined us. Marc and the jew were tryna get me to hook up with doug one of their friends whose been texting me for awhile. Was def interesting. There was no way I was going there with doug he isn’t realy my type. And the fact hes also hit on tonz before is off putting as well lol. We ended up going home at about 4.30. was def a long night and I needed my sleep the next morning. Which I so didn’t get lol. I managed to drag nic out with me n mum to see my auntys new house that she just bought with her partner which was cool. Its an amazing house! we just hung out for the day in the sweltering heat then went home to rest and relax. We just ended up having a few drinks at home on Friday with me nic hads shane n tonz. It was a bit of a sad day for me cause it goes back to when I had my abortion. I was due on the 6th of feb so I always end up thinking bout it… and I was drinking gin which I fully cant drink anymore lol. So I stopped drinking and went to bed pretty early after nic seranded me to sleep lol
On Saturday it was all pretty much the same. Laxed during the day and then we went out for dinner that night and then went home and had some drinks. My morning yesterday did not start well tho! I woke up to shane smashing on my bedroom door telling me I needed to move my car. I told him where my keys were and next minute he had taken off in my car down the road! I was so freaking pissed! He doesn’t have a licsense and would have been over the alcohol limit and he didn’t ask me if he could borrow my car just took off. It made me so fucking mad and I still am now. He has yet to say sorry or anything and we havnt even spoken since then. Grr I was mad! That started my day off bad and it went from there. The inconsiderate fucks that I live with were going out last night to get everyone dinner but me! it mad me so mad and upset like hello I live here to! In the end I went n got my own dinner and took off to another friends place. It wasn’t even worth being there causeof how ive been feeling.
Lately I feel very left out etc at home and ive been crying etc everyday. I don’t know whats going on but it sucks. Its my 21st soon and I wanna be there with my best friends not the people formerly known as best friends y aknow. I needa get out of the place that im in mentally at the mo… grrr so annoyed with myself!
Sunday, February 1, 2009
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Well I have just had like one of the most motional boring weekends in awhile! Ive been pretty sick with the flu for the last 4 days so I missed work on Thursday and Friday and todays my first day back! Oh yay but at least we have a long weekend starting from Friday! I don’t really have much to write about. Ive been in a wee bit of a dark place lately and im just tryna get myself through it. Haha one of marcs friends doug hit on me this weekend it was pretty funny! But yeah I will update you all when I have something more profound to say!
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