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Thursday, May 14, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Keep on trucking!
So I guess you could say I’m one of those people that get inspired by others. As you probably know I’ve been considering pursuing what I really want outta life and as my career. I applied for a few jobs but none of them panned out at this stage so I was looking at courses the other night on the net. First of all what inspired me was Nicola is quitting her job and trying to work out whether or not she was gonna go back to school to study something else. And this whole unease with the girl’s thing has really made me put my life back into perspective. Like I mean friends are one thing but to make them your life is a whole other story. I don’t even know where i'm going with this really. I guess it’s more to update those of you who aren’t on facebook. Just cruising along with life really at the moment.
I’ve sorted the dramas in the house out but as for me n gen n Toni I have no idea what will happen there. As to whether or not it does get resolved is another story. I’ve said my piece and told them how I felt but if they won’t take that then there’s nothing I can do.
Nic and I are fine. Obviously our I’m so drunk I wont remember this talk went well. So that’s cool. And we are planning a sort of surprise party for Shane. Nic's going to be in charge of the cake which is awesome!
I need to know with absolute certainty that I can do this course and do it well and I guess I need to have my families backing on it. I spoke to my dad and granddad last night about it and although my dad thinks it should have been done two years ago he is in full support of it. Its would be hard and I would need to find a part time job and shiz before hand so I can be sure I wont starve to death but I really think I can do it ya’ll! Hmm we will see after I go to my family dinner on Saturday night!! I have such a busy weekend on at the moment lol.
I was just speaking to Nic on the phone about me going to jess’s for dinner tonight and I could sense the disapproval but she actually held her tongue. It was nice. I cant remember if I posted about it but I was in a taxi on the way to town with everyone and I guess I owe it to Hads for me n Nic having started talking again. He said it was so sucky seeing his girlfriend hurting cause she was fighting with her best friend and convinced us to talk. So for that I am glad!
Hmm it appears I am all over the place as well. BTW and I don’t say this because I am obsessed but I fully think you should all check out the twilight soundtrack! I have it on constant replay at the moment and im getting into a whole new style of music! Youtube search for the band 100 monkeys and their song :”scientists” as well. That’s is some good music!
I’ve sorted the dramas in the house out but as for me n gen n Toni I have no idea what will happen there. As to whether or not it does get resolved is another story. I’ve said my piece and told them how I felt but if they won’t take that then there’s nothing I can do.
Nic and I are fine. Obviously our I’m so drunk I wont remember this talk went well. So that’s cool. And we are planning a sort of surprise party for Shane. Nic's going to be in charge of the cake which is awesome!
I need to know with absolute certainty that I can do this course and do it well and I guess I need to have my families backing on it. I spoke to my dad and granddad last night about it and although my dad thinks it should have been done two years ago he is in full support of it. Its would be hard and I would need to find a part time job and shiz before hand so I can be sure I wont starve to death but I really think I can do it ya’ll! Hmm we will see after I go to my family dinner on Saturday night!! I have such a busy weekend on at the moment lol.
I was just speaking to Nic on the phone about me going to jess’s for dinner tonight and I could sense the disapproval but she actually held her tongue. It was nice. I cant remember if I posted about it but I was in a taxi on the way to town with everyone and I guess I owe it to Hads for me n Nic having started talking again. He said it was so sucky seeing his girlfriend hurting cause she was fighting with her best friend and convinced us to talk. So for that I am glad!
Hmm it appears I am all over the place as well. BTW and I don’t say this because I am obsessed but I fully think you should all check out the twilight soundtrack! I have it on constant replay at the moment and im getting into a whole new style of music! Youtube search for the band 100 monkeys and their song :”scientists” as well. That’s is some good music!
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Spinning...
Fuck! That’s the only word I can think right now! My aunty just emailed me through contact details for my biological dad. I don’t know what to think or what to do with the information that ive been given. The urge to dial his number right now is so extreme but I don’t know what I would say to him or how to talk to him or anything… I also got given his postal address so im thinking about writing him a letter… my head is spinning. That’s the only thing I know right now. It sucks that I cant talk to the girls about this either. I would love to be able to talk to them..
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
A new perspective!
Today I woke up in a much better mindset! I spent a lot of last night thinking and making decisions. Im still taking steps towards being the person I want to be and I feel good about it! I think ive lost a little weight. I don’t have so much of the muffin top thang goin on at the moment and my boobs are shrinking ever so quickly haha. I applied for my dream like ultimate fantastical job today. I spent a lot of time debating over it. The job is in Qtown which is where I pretty much lived with the ex. But its more money and it would be an amazing foot in the door. I feel like its something I have to do and what with everyone ignoring me it helps me gain a new perspective. I kinda need to talk to my mum about all of this tho cause if something did go ahead she would probably be a little upset lol. A friend of mine just said to me that it’s a big thing to do and asked if I was ready for it. I just text back and said “ I feel like I gotta take a chance. All the shit that’s gone down with friendships n stuff over the last year shoulda changed things but 4 everyone to turn 2 turn their backs on me I feel like I got nothn left in me you know. “ haha I have no idea how she will take that. But what I said is true. I cant keep fighting this daily battle with everyone to do whats right or to sit in silence in my bedroom waiting for my reprieve from the jury that is my peers.
On other news I really feel that I should check myself into twilight rehab. I cant put the series down and im totally jonesing for my fix of the dvd. Ive watched it twice since I bought it and also the documentary on making it. Ive read the books a grand total of three times each in the last few months and im now considering buying the cd just to get that extra little hit haha. God help me!
On other news I really feel that I should check myself into twilight rehab. I cant put the series down and im totally jonesing for my fix of the dvd. Ive watched it twice since I bought it and also the documentary on making it. Ive read the books a grand total of three times each in the last few months and im now considering buying the cd just to get that extra little hit haha. God help me!
Monday, May 4, 2009
Wow!
Ok I totally just did it! Did what you may ask? I just applied for a few different cabin crew posistions with a few airlines. I have always wanted to do this but noone has ever approved and given the way all my friendships currently keep turning to shit.. I figure why the hell not. There arent really any posistions available but thats ok ive done this express interest thing and its great! Im happy and it feels good!
On friday night I was mad and told Carl and Shane what had been said. About the girls refusing to even come to the driveway of our house. I know it was the wrong thing to do but when you dont have anyone else to talk to and your venting it will come out. In hindsight it may have come accross as stirring but that was never the intention. Not that anyone believes me. And the story has gotten twisted. After I said that, Shane picked a fight with Nicola about it and of course Nicola has passed it all along. So now noone is talking to me. I couldnt sleep last night.. Its Nicolas bday on friday and the party is at our house. I wont be attending. Oh well. you live and you learn and the one MAJOR lesson I just learnt is not to talk to anyone. You cant trust even your closest friends nowadays. I really hope I get an interview or whatever. Would be so cool. Cause I think its time for me to start over..
On friday night I was mad and told Carl and Shane what had been said. About the girls refusing to even come to the driveway of our house. I know it was the wrong thing to do but when you dont have anyone else to talk to and your venting it will come out. In hindsight it may have come accross as stirring but that was never the intention. Not that anyone believes me. And the story has gotten twisted. After I said that, Shane picked a fight with Nicola about it and of course Nicola has passed it all along. So now noone is talking to me. I couldnt sleep last night.. Its Nicolas bday on friday and the party is at our house. I wont be attending. Oh well. you live and you learn and the one MAJOR lesson I just learnt is not to talk to anyone. You cant trust even your closest friends nowadays. I really hope I get an interview or whatever. Would be so cool. Cause I think its time for me to start over..
Sunday, May 3, 2009
I am in shock…
I shoulda seen it coming and stuff but my best friend is leaving.. gen is moving out officially. Carl and her had a talk last night and I guess that’s the resolution that they came to but that doesn’t make it suck any less. Apparently they are still together or whateva but just not gonna live together and they need to decided what they want from each other. I already miss gen! we never see each other anymore and ive seen her like twice in the last few weeks. It fully feels like ive been ditched in a very selfish way. I know it sounds incredibly selfish but its like tonz has stolen her from me. It was so weird yesterday going food shopping for only three people! But I guess life goes on.. and that one day they will have their answers. Personally I think carl is better off without gen after all the stuff ive been hearing. Its ridiculous… but also none of my business. Im just gonna be there for whoever needs me and sit back n watch!
I had such a good night on Friday night hangin out with ash and her crew. I felt like such a pimp when the three cars picked me up! Damn those are some nice ass cars and fast to! We went out to the north shore to pick someone up then rolled back to town to meet up with some more people. We parked up behind the museum and hung out and another car arrived then we went and met up with another. My hot ass friend from school was tryna get into me but I guess im just not interested lol cause I just kinda hid from him! On Saturday night we had a smoke and watched Robot Chicken! I fully recommend it if you wanna laugh your ass off! That about sums up my weekend guys! Sorry for the lame ass post but I guess that’s how I roll when im fairly content with my life..
p.s I invited Paul to Nics bday soiree on Friday and hes gonna be crashin in my bed!
I shoulda seen it coming and stuff but my best friend is leaving.. gen is moving out officially. Carl and her had a talk last night and I guess that’s the resolution that they came to but that doesn’t make it suck any less. Apparently they are still together or whateva but just not gonna live together and they need to decided what they want from each other. I already miss gen! we never see each other anymore and ive seen her like twice in the last few weeks. It fully feels like ive been ditched in a very selfish way. I know it sounds incredibly selfish but its like tonz has stolen her from me. It was so weird yesterday going food shopping for only three people! But I guess life goes on.. and that one day they will have their answers. Personally I think carl is better off without gen after all the stuff ive been hearing. Its ridiculous… but also none of my business. Im just gonna be there for whoever needs me and sit back n watch!
I had such a good night on Friday night hangin out with ash and her crew. I felt like such a pimp when the three cars picked me up! Damn those are some nice ass cars and fast to! We went out to the north shore to pick someone up then rolled back to town to meet up with some more people. We parked up behind the museum and hung out and another car arrived then we went and met up with another. My hot ass friend from school was tryna get into me but I guess im just not interested lol cause I just kinda hid from him! On Saturday night we had a smoke and watched Robot Chicken! I fully recommend it if you wanna laugh your ass off! That about sums up my weekend guys! Sorry for the lame ass post but I guess that’s how I roll when im fairly content with my life..
p.s I invited Paul to Nics bday soiree on Friday and hes gonna be crashin in my bed!
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Friday afternoon boredom! Do it!
1. Are you smiling right now?
Umm not really it might look kinda loony haha
2. When is the last time you met someone new?
Um like last weekend when I went to town. I met hads cricket team!
3. What is irritating you right now?
That theres still an hour and a half left of my work week!
4. When did you last eat pizza?
Mmm last week my boss bought us all pizza!
5. Do you have any friends who are famous?
Nah not anymore
6. Are you any good at poker
Im not bad when the stakes are high!
7. What do you want?
To be sittin at Black Salt with the girls sippin on my fantastic cocktail! roll on 6pm!
8. Are you tired?
Maybe but ill perk up soon!
9. Last spoken words you heard?
i can hear lotsa chatter in the distance but cant make out words!
10. Have you ever kissed anyone named John?
Probably in my skanky days!
11. Besides your bed, what is your favorite thing in your room?
Umm all my photos or my 21st key!
12. Pepsi or Coke?
Coke for shizzle! I miss the diet coke with lemon that they bougt out for awhile!
13. Have you ever thrown up?
Is my name Zara?
14. Have you ever thrown up while kissing someone?
WTF who comes up with this stuff..no!
15. Who is the last person you hugged?
Shane
16. Are you restless?
Yeah friday boredom is rapidly sinking in!
17. Is your computer a laptop?
Nope its mah work one!
18. Are you allowed to stay up later than 10pm on a weeknight?
Only if im not keeping shane awake haha of course! what sort of 21 year old do you take me for!
19. How many bebo views do you have?
umm i dnno nearly 4,000
21. Want to be a princess?
my name means princess and im the princess of the family haha
22. Do you believe dreams come true?
not really
23. Last song you heard?
Rehab- Rhianna
24. Do you like Batman?
Thats not my bag baby!
25. Who is in the room with you?
Like 13 other people...I can name them if you really want..
26. Who's house did you last spend the night?
Oh god ummmm Nicolas parents like last year haha
27. Who was the last person you told they're a fag?
Carl
28. What was the last thing you ate?
Chicken flavoured easy mac n cheese!
29. What were you doing before this?
Working very hard!
30. What is the closest item near you that is blue?
My drink can..
31. What are you wearing on your feet?
Jandals!
32. What instant messaging service do you use?
None
33. What is your favorite website?
umm facebook haha
34. What is/are your favorite pair of shoes?
my peep toes that ive only worn once cause there so tall but so pretty haha
35. What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?
Neither..i mostly wear skirts...or i spose PJ pants!
36. What is the last movie you watched?
Twilight!
37. What do you currently hear right now?
Music n chatter..
38. When did you last buy a new pair of pants?
Umm like a year ago haha i even wear skirts in winter!
39. Where’s your favorite place to be?
Wanaka!
40. Where is your mum?
Fuck knows... home/motorbike riding/work
41. Where do you sleep?
always in my bed or if im drunk on the couch for liek an hour maybe..i never like to miss the fun!
42. Where do you shop the most?
hmm glassons or arizona!
43. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
glassons!
44. Where was your default Facebook picture taken?
at the club where i had my 21st!
45. Why did you pick your background?
cause its nice n simple haha
46. Are you happy with where you live?
altho i whinge i love it! its the most settled ive been in like 4 years!
47. Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
no cause cheating is never ok!
48. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
yeah ive done it before
49. Have you ever talked about marriage with someone before?
stupidly yeah!
50. Do you want someone you can't have?
kinda i guess
51. Do you believe love at first sight exists?
haha connection yeah but not love!
52. Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
of course!
53. Do you believe that you can change someone?
i dont believe you should!
Umm not really it might look kinda loony haha
2. When is the last time you met someone new?
Um like last weekend when I went to town. I met hads cricket team!
3. What is irritating you right now?
That theres still an hour and a half left of my work week!
4. When did you last eat pizza?
Mmm last week my boss bought us all pizza!
5. Do you have any friends who are famous?
Nah not anymore
6. Are you any good at poker
Im not bad when the stakes are high!
7. What do you want?
To be sittin at Black Salt with the girls sippin on my fantastic cocktail! roll on 6pm!
8. Are you tired?
Maybe but ill perk up soon!
9. Last spoken words you heard?
i can hear lotsa chatter in the distance but cant make out words!
10. Have you ever kissed anyone named John?
Probably in my skanky days!
11. Besides your bed, what is your favorite thing in your room?
Umm all my photos or my 21st key!
12. Pepsi or Coke?
Coke for shizzle! I miss the diet coke with lemon that they bougt out for awhile!
13. Have you ever thrown up?
Is my name Zara?
14. Have you ever thrown up while kissing someone?
WTF who comes up with this stuff..no!
15. Who is the last person you hugged?
Shane
16. Are you restless?
Yeah friday boredom is rapidly sinking in!
17. Is your computer a laptop?
Nope its mah work one!
18. Are you allowed to stay up later than 10pm on a weeknight?
Only if im not keeping shane awake haha of course! what sort of 21 year old do you take me for!
19. How many bebo views do you have?
umm i dnno nearly 4,000
21. Want to be a princess?
my name means princess and im the princess of the family haha
22. Do you believe dreams come true?
not really
23. Last song you heard?
Rehab- Rhianna
24. Do you like Batman?
Thats not my bag baby!
25. Who is in the room with you?
Like 13 other people...I can name them if you really want..
26. Who's house did you last spend the night?
Oh god ummmm Nicolas parents like last year haha
27. Who was the last person you told they're a fag?
Carl
28. What was the last thing you ate?
Chicken flavoured easy mac n cheese!
29. What were you doing before this?
Working very hard!
30. What is the closest item near you that is blue?
My drink can..
31. What are you wearing on your feet?
Jandals!
32. What instant messaging service do you use?
None
33. What is your favorite website?
umm facebook haha
34. What is/are your favorite pair of shoes?
my peep toes that ive only worn once cause there so tall but so pretty haha
35. What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?
Neither..i mostly wear skirts...or i spose PJ pants!
36. What is the last movie you watched?
Twilight!
37. What do you currently hear right now?
Music n chatter..
38. When did you last buy a new pair of pants?
Umm like a year ago haha i even wear skirts in winter!
39. Where’s your favorite place to be?
Wanaka!
40. Where is your mum?
Fuck knows... home/motorbike riding/work
41. Where do you sleep?
always in my bed or if im drunk on the couch for liek an hour maybe..i never like to miss the fun!
42. Where do you shop the most?
hmm glassons or arizona!
43. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
glassons!
44. Where was your default Facebook picture taken?
at the club where i had my 21st!
45. Why did you pick your background?
cause its nice n simple haha
46. Are you happy with where you live?
altho i whinge i love it! its the most settled ive been in like 4 years!
47. Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
no cause cheating is never ok!
48. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
yeah ive done it before
49. Have you ever talked about marriage with someone before?
stupidly yeah!
50. Do you want someone you can't have?
kinda i guess
51. Do you believe love at first sight exists?
haha connection yeah but not love!
52. Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
of course!
53. Do you believe that you can change someone?
i dont believe you should!
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